JANE'S NAME.

jane’s name in particular, is specifically important to my portrayal, and the way she would develop around the numerous titles she’s referred to. before meeting the party, she’s eleven. a number. all she has ever known. she then meets the boys, and as we see in season one, it’s a mix between eleven and el. after hopper finds her and grants her a home in the cabin, el’s literacy skills begin to develop. she writes something every day, and expands her vocabulary through reading, watching television, and listening to hopp. a few months in, she begins signing her name as elle, fleshing out the title, further growing into her own individual skin. she might still refer to herself as eleven every now and then, and does not mind if hopp does, but she’s slowly working herself away from that number. she continues to go by elle up until she meets her mother mid season two.she physically holds her birth and death certificate, which claimed her janessa alexandra ives. named after her grandmother. from there on out, both eleven and elle are dashed, and she’s only jane. jane ives, the girl she was always meant to be. she takes back her identity, and does not allow herself to fall back into old habits and sign herself as eleven. she has no problem in correcting someone should they call her elle. ***she will always correct them, with a bit of attitude, by simply saying: “jane.”she connects both to janessa and jane. janessa, as it connects her to her family tree, to two generations before her. it makes her feel even more in touch with her family. jane, because she physically hears her mother calling her jane in the void among her scattered mumblings, terry also says "jane" on occasion aloud.she considers herself janessa/jane ives first and foremost.regarding legal documents like in school, to keep up all appearances she’s janessa hopper. but mentally, and concerning her friends and family, she is jane ives. despite some trinkets from her meant to be home, and visits between becky going to hawkins, and jane going out to see her mother and aunt, she really doesn’t have anything of the life she was born for. when hopper legally adopts her, she is so thankful, and feels so loved to have a real and stable place to call her own. it’s the first step for her no longer second guessing that she might be given up, might be gotten bored of. hopper actually lets her keep the documents in her room, but does make sure she knows how important they are. she sits him down one night, and asks him very softly if she can still be janessa ives. she wants to respect her mother and be apart of her. she doesn’t want to hurt or offend him, but she thinks she needs to be honest. hopper tells her she will always be apart of her mother, no matter what name she takes, that it’s about how she feels and how she loves. he does not mind if she wants to call herself jane ives, but just reminds her that if anybody asks, she needs to say hopper.in threads, i do not expect anyone to refer to her as elle in their writing – el is totally fine of course. (this is just my own personal headcanon and i’ve become very familiar writing the four letters opposed to two.) however, anything after 2.05, i would appreciate characters to refer to her as jane._ she does not want to be referred to as eleven, or el/elle, unless the specific thread calls for it. also because she connects heavily to both janessa and jane, i will switch up using them in threads, and i encourage my rp partners to do the same! she and i truly have no preference!.

REGARDING MAX.

given my jane does not date mike, and their relationship only follows canon up until the end of season two, she reaches out to max on her own accord! i hate that they only became friends because jane was having boy troubles! in context i can kinda understand it because she doesn’t know who else to turn to, and it’s all still relatively new to her but…. no.i do believe her snubbing max was very in character. she was confused; this random girl showed up, started hanging around the boy she thinks the world of. when she makes her big entrance into the byers’ to return to her friends and family, this girl is also there. one girl amongst those boys, and she immediately thinks max is replacing her. but after the gate is closed, and the chaos of it all concludes, jane has some time to think about her feelings and place in the party. realising she is not in love with mike, she gives max another chance.jane! approaches! max! at! the! snowball! she does not spend all her time with mike. she sees all her friends (including jonathan and nancy) and spends as much time as she can with each of them. after some time, she asks nancy to pour her two cups, and approaches max with one of them. she more or less shoves the drink under the girls nose, trying to start a conversation though a little unsure how. they get to know one another a bit there. it’s strained and somewhat odd, but it’s a start.when the party visit jane in the cabin (because they all visit her. not just mike) max tags along a few times. jane has no objection to this, and there they start kindling something akin to a friendship.jane, after some time, then approaches max because she wants to get to know her better. she straight out asks if she’d like to be proper friends, and it begins from there. this all begins pre three, so they have some time to properly get to know one another before all the crazy starts. also meaning they go to starcourt mall way earlier; even just a month before the first episode begins. and because of that, jane goes to starcourt a few times on her own. because breaking the rules, makes her own rules behaviour. <3 and we are very aware she can catch a bus on her own!!.

CLOSURE WITH TERRY.

jane still feels very little closure regarding her mother and where she comes from. it's still a seriously sensitive subject. it was traumatising to see terry's past; watching her in physical pain, and in such a weak and frantic state. seeing the moments she lost jane, her reactions and mental state is not something that will ever be forgotten. seeing how much she loved her, and being punished for it, in the worst ways possible. there was such a contradiction in jane seeing this scrambled woman in the void, but then transforming to the fierce, empowered one who was willing to stop at nothing to get her daughter back. and then seeing what she became due to the bad men. outside all this, terry is unresponsive, ill, and rather strange. jane went to her mama to get some answers, find out who janessa ives was supposed to be, but leaves with a greater feeling of loss. this doesn't fill the emptiness that she thought was supposed go away, because this was meant to be her home. while she does gain a close relationship with becky, and truly loves her; she's not her mother. terry is not dead, but there's only so much that jane can communicate with her. she can hold her hand, but she'll never feel her mother's fingers tightening around hers. she can visit her in the void, but even that doesn't offer jane anything further. she never gets closure in her relationship with terry. she's instead left with more questions. left angry for herself, and for mama, for what they can never have. there is closure in death, and if terry was gone, at least jane would know she wasn't suffering. that maybe even she'd be able to move on from never having a mother. only she does have one, but can't do anything to save her or help her.when jane's powers return in season four (and because they were regained by her confronting and accepting her past, rather than being retraumatised with it!) they're stronger than they ever were. when she starts getting a handle back on them, she very quickly comes to realise not only have they affected her, but her mother, too. one of the biggest losses that came about with her losing them was the fact that she could no longer visit terry in the void; while there was no real communication there, it did allow jane to sit with her, and gain a little more connection than she could in the real world. when she first visits the void after their return, it takes her three hours to find terry, something that is both unexpected and incredibly worrying. but when she does, it's something of a miracle. jane's increased strength and control over the void actually wakes terry up from her catatonic state, but only in the void. there's no way to help her mother physically, but she does do so (unbeknownst to her) mentally. terry is reborn in jane's newfound control over the vale of shadows; she becomes the woman she once was, and while her body remains frozen in a "good dream", her mind connected to jane's own allows her some freedom. jane is able to speak to her mother in the void, is able to be held by her, and while it's still unfair and jane cannot stay in there forever, it's something. this only lasts for about eight months, as each visit slowly begins deteriorating terry's physical and mental state, and jane's health begins declining after spending hours upon hours in the void each and every day.when jane finds out these visits are actually killing her mother on the outside, she deems to stop, but terry expresses the importance of them being able to speak, that she'd prefer to die on the outside, if it meant she could have just a few months with her daughter like this. terry and jane's connection was always so strong, which ultimately led to terry "waking up" in the void, but even jane's newfound strength cannot save her from the harsh realities. each visit nearing the end of those eight months, terry fades more and more, becomes weaker in the void, and her real body eventually gives up. Jane’s in the void when her mother eventually passes on, and physically feels their connection weaken, like some part of her suddenly becomes lost in the shadows, a part she'll never find again. jane falls into a depressive state for weeks after her mother's death, given she's technically lost her a second time, but soon comes to realise she was lucky to have even shared those eight months together. it was better than nothing at all. there is a proper burial and funeral, (and when jane dies, she's buried next to her mother) which allows jane some sense of closure. she never fully recovers from losing terry, nor from the fact that she never had a proper relationship with her, but she does eventually find some peace with it all.

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REGARDING MIKE.

jane’s relationship with mike is not physical in the sense that the show portrays. my jane is not in a romantic relationship with him. in season three, she becomes less reliant, branches out to the other members of the party, rather than closing herself off to him. she considers him her first friend, her best friend, but that’s as far as it goes. iam not anti mileven or anything of the sort, in fact i really loved them in season one and two. now, i just do not find it realistic for a girl like jane to be in a relationship like theirs, at her age and with her experiences. mike is extremely important to jane – and this cannot be taken lightly. she views him in the absolute highest regard.jane does still go to the snowball to share a dance with him, where they take part in a small kiss, but it has no romantic elements. it’s very much a i’m happy i’m here, and here i’ll stay expression, as it’s a festive night with celebrations all round.the following summer, before jane properly steps foot outside the cabin again, she has many visits from her friends over the months. mike does spend a fair amount of time with her, but their time includes him showing her comics, watching television together, jane sharing her newfound hobbies, hanging out like typical kids. after the snowball, there’s not a single kiss to follow. jane does not have any romantic associations. she looks up to him, admires, and loves him more than she can possibly describe – although purely platonically.[even though this doesn't follow my canon, i think it's still important to note! —]]{#5C5C5C} after the incident at the roller rink, mike and jane do talk about what happened, leading to their argument, and jane’s seeded feelings being released. that she is not a superhero anymore, that she does not belong. she lied in her letters because she wanted to try and be someone else, wanted her best friends to see her the way they used to. that even though she didn’t have her powers, she could still make friends, be invited places, have fun with new people…she wanted mike especially to believe this, as he was the first person to ever see her as someone worthy of befriending. of protecting. she did not want to lose that. if she couldn’t even do something as simple as make new friends, would he still think so highly of her? there is no talk of “from mike”, rather hashing these deep insecurities she’s built regarding their relationship. she does leave him the “i’ve gone to become a superhero again”, note, but the “from” is not significant at all. she’s going away to prove she can be who she once was. who she thinks she needs to be for the sake of her friends. for the world.when the boy’s find jane in the woods, she has absolutely no concept of love or what it entails.she grew attached to mike initially, as he was the one who took her in, made her warm, gave her food. the first person to ever treat her as a breathing individual. she was overwhelmed with these immense feelings of gratitude and sheer happiness. in her mind, this was the concept of love. she loved him, yes, but was not in love with him. she still would not truly grasp what it is to be in love with another person, and will not for a long time. (frankly, she doesn’t need that stress.) she has told mike she loves him, but clearly as nothing more than a friend, her best friend..

GENETICS.

jane has unbalanced, unstable body chemistry and atypical genetics due to what she was submitted to when in the womb. long-term effects on her body take its toll through bouts of extreme weakness, fatigue and becoming incredibly ill at times. she has a very weak immune system. because of this, when it’s winter and people start getting sick, she needs to be extremely careful who she hangs around with, because if she gets sick it could very well be life threatening. when she's nineteen, she spends six weeks in the hospital after catching a common cold.

BECKY AND TERRY.

jane keeps in contact with her aunt and mother. three weeks after she closes the gate, she asks hopper to find becky's home number so she can call her. she’d like to visit, but it’s still too risky at the moment, so settling for a phone call has to do. firstly, she apologises. profoundly. for running away in the dead of night and most likely leaving her to worry out of her mind. she explains the situation as best she can, what she needed to do; to find out who she was. “i would like to stay connected with you and mama. if that is okay.” becky expresses her desire for that, too. they talk for about a half hour, before hopper takes over and explains some of the situation. jane needs to hide out for about a year. he’s legally adopted her. after six months he thinks it would be alright for he and jane to visit them, but the sisters are always welcome in hawkins to see them.in early december becky visits on her own, just for a few hours to see jane in the flesh. she gives her the toys that had been set up in her room, and a picture album filled with memories of the ives’ family. they remain connected. both terry and becky visit three days after christmas. it’s difficult given terry’s condition, but they all make it work. jane sends constant letters to them both, calls becky at least once a week, and when she’s able, visits mama in the void. becky is slowly filled in on the details about hawkins and its happenings, as jane opens up to her overtime about her own experiences and the way she was raised. there’s many visits between the two households once jane is granted a little more leeway in where she goes. soon every second weekend is spent with becky and terry, and often max joins her as they have a sleepover there..

FASHION.

jane’s clothes are extremely important to her, because they’re a great source for expression and individuality. although she enjoys wearing hand-me-downs on the simple fact that they’re given from the people she loves the most– she does favour leaning towards her own style and choice. she’ll go to extreme lengths and is very particular when she’s shopping. she likes to keep in with the ‘trends’, especially when she’s first experimenting with her own style, as it makes her feel included and on the same line of life as those around her. however, over time she tends to venture towards things she likes, opposed to what might ‘in.’ she loves wearing dresses, ones that go just below her knee or just above; prefers long sleeves down to her wrists, but will settle for shoulder or elbow length.visiting the byers, she witnesses joyce patching up old clothes through sewing them back together, and found an interest in the skill. she asks joyce if she’ll teach her, and soon jane develops a keen passion. alongside joyce’s assistance, she borrows books from the library about sewing for beginners, and work as much as she can on it. her projects begin very small, mainly with accessories in her hair – headbands, bandanas, bows– before extending her sights a little further. her end goal is to be able to make her own dresses from the ground up, but begins by adding on to pre-existing dresses she’s previously purchased. ie: the dress she wears at the roller rink; the colours and squiggly lines were added on by her.she goes to thrift shops, $2 shops, local markets etc, either on her own or if anyone wants to join her. three months in, she’s put together her first dress; it’s shabby and she wouldn’t wear it outside the house, but it’s hers, and it’s a starting place. seven months in, jane begins to get into a routine, no longer needs joyce’s help, and begins crafting her own outfits. by the time school starts she’s made a few skirts (which she tops off with an oversized flannel tied in a knot, like we see in the season 3 finale), they all look the same, merely different colours and patterns. she makes her first proper dress a month into school, and she wears the shit out of it. it’s very summery, a light blue with small daisy patterns, reaching her wrists, skirt resting in the middle of her knees. after this, it becomes second nature to her, and soon her closet slowly begins growing with her own creations..

COMPANY IN THE VOID.

special circumstances arise in regards to the void, in which jane is able to ‘carry’ someone else with her inside. this can only be accomplished if the said someone else was born with abilities like her, or possesses some supernatural quirk that makes them not 100% human / natural. in preparing to enter the void, the other needs to physically be there beside her, preferably sitting opposite so they’re able to clasp hands comfortably. like jane, her partner is required to wear a blindfold to shut out all light surrounding. jane enters on her own, as usual, before speaking out loud: “(name) will you join me?” only able to lead someone else in with their consent, she’ll be joined in a timeframe ranging from thirty seconds to four minutes. there’s no consistency. when joined, the two are required to remain holding hands so to keep the connection they’re forming in their real bodies. her company has no power nor control when inside, merely carried alongside jane, for whatever the situation may require. she is able to connect with her partner in the way she can terry, venture towards memories and such that are not her own. again, this is only done so by consent. jane would not be able to touch anything personal of whoever is travelling with her without their agreement. jane doesn’t do this often as it’s extremely draining. she’s not able to stay inside the void for as long as she might on her own, and when she’s out, it takes hours for her body to recover. overtime, however, when she learns to master this skill, she slowly branches out to the ability of taking anyone with her, superpowered or not. it’s obviously not something done frequently, or ever committed to without significant reasoning, but it is something she can master..

FAMILY PERCEPTION.

during her presentation of her diorama, it is the very first, and only time she refers to hopper as ‘dad.’_ it comes out before she realises, and has no time to take it back. it does not mean she loves him any less, but calling him by fatherly titles is not something she’ll ever do. he’s her family, yes, but just like she feels jonathan and will are her real brothers, she knows they’re not, and as such is never going to call them that out loud. there’s always going to be a part of her that knows she’s an outsider to both the byers’ family and the hoppper family; joyce has her boys, and jim had sara. she knows they love her, just as much as she does them. she knows very well that family isn’t born it’s made, but doesn’t feel comfortable calling him dad, and will never refer to him as it with other people..

REGARDING KALI.

although the episode could have been presented better, jane's relationship and time with kali is ingraining and extremely important for jane's growth. she learns that anger is okay; it's okay to be mad and let it all out. although that environment was toxic for jane and she had to leave, jane constantly checks up on kali through the void, hoping she is okay,. given she still has the mask she wore on her brief venture with them, shows in itself that their connection will never be forgotten. jane couldn't partake in that kind of life, but she also understands that she and her sister had gravely different experiences in the world once stepping out of the lab. jane was lucky enough to surround herself with good people, those who would help her grow into herself and accept herself. kali's gang only fuelled her hate for the world. that could have just as easily been jane should she have grown up in kali's situation. without kali, jane knows she never would have been able to close the gate, never touched that part of herself that, while toxic and horrible, needed to be unlocked. jane hopes to see her again one day, perhaps show her that revenge isn't always the answer. but if kali continues this path, it's okay, too..

REFLECTION.

jane does her best to avoid mirrors at any cost as she finds her reflection somewhat distorted in them. she sees who she is, knows it’s her, but her face always looks a tad askew; like her eyes are too far apart, or her lips are a little smaller than she thought they were. overtime, this becomes so prevalent that if she looks into one for too long, her perception and surroundings instead hold a similarity to the upside down. in the bathroom, the shower behind her drapes with tangled vines; the sink is running, but it releases the same black liquid that she was coughing up after closing the gate. her own body and face will transform into that twelve year old girl with a shaved head and a tattered hospital gown.it gets to the point that she begins combing her hair elsewhere, and brushing her teeth with her eyes closed so she doesn’t need to look in the mirror, or using the kitchen sink. she does open up about these experiences with her therapist in 1986, and is given techniques to help distinguish between what is real and what isn’t. these mental tools do help, but sometimes, even if it’s just a flash, blink and you’ll miss it, the glass will show her what’s not really there. ultimately, it’s why there’s no mirror in her bedroom both in hopper’s cabin and the ives’ house. even when she’s nearing adulthood, becky stands in the bathroom with her when jane has no choice but to use it, and assures her niece that anything she may be seeing is not real..

AFTER THE GATE.

it took days for jane to get over and recover from the strain it required closing the gate. sealing the demogorgan away was one thing, it knocked her out for at least an hour, and left her incredibly weak and frail. the only reason she was able to fight for herself and escape the upside down was the sheer adrenaline of it all. knowing mike was out there somewhere, knowing the bad men were after her. but in closing the gate, she knew for the moment, she would be able to find some peace in herself, that she wasn’t required. i think the series itself seriously underestimated and downplayed the affect closing the gate actually had on her. jane was very woozy after the events, and hopper had to carry her out of the lab because she couldn’t walk. on the drive back home she fell into a very deep sleep that was concerning at first. not only was the power extreme and draining, but it was terrifying, too. she lifted off the ground, her anger was enough to lock this great beast away; the mental capacity this took on her was also enough to lull into that deep sleep.the following days after closing the gate, she mainly sleeps, only waking for a few minutes over scattered times, waking to find someone (usually hopper) sitting at her bedside. it’s blurry and disorienting, and she’s not awake for more than three minutes at a time. her body temperature goes crazy over these few days, from boiling hot to freezing cold; hopper is constantly opening and closing the windows, taking her bed sheets on and off, to accommodate her temperature best he can. she thrashes about in her sleep, though never wakes up from the horrible things plaguing her mind. a few times in her brief moments of consciousness, she also vomits, mainly liquid goo because she hasn’t been eating, and has nothing to throw up. the sick itself is extremely hot; assumed aftermath of the heat she endured when closing the gate. when she does come to properly, and finds some semblance of balance and familiarity, she is slow on her feet, luggy and dazed. she spends another two days in bed, only getting up to go to the bathroom, and not allowed any visitors. eating gets her strength back up, but at first she can’t hold it down properly. she drinks a lot of water, which gets her body working again, and she slowly but surely begins to function normally.those veins on her face take nine days to fade completely; there are also scattered veins up her arms, and on her hands. they begin in the centre of her palms, swirl around her fingers, and trail off in the front of her hands. they all fade in unison, and vanish after said nine days. however the veins on her left hand and neck remain; they do fade, but for some reason never leave completely. jane often clenches that fist in and out, hating the marring lines, thinking it ugly and monstrous. it came from the upside down, and she feels like she’s stuck with a piece of it now. it is a process to get back to normal, but as we see by the time the snowball arrives, she’s back to some version of herself.jane still dreams about closing the gate, the heat that burst in her belly, feeling her feet rise from the ground, feeling the blood pouring from her ears, the sweat on her face. all these feelings and more prickle at her skin sometimes, without warning, and can either vanish as quickly as they came, or linger without a timeframe. depending on the extremities, they can make her immobile, feeling like her body is seizing up, and she can’t move. it feels like her spine has been frozen, and her mind and body are completely disconnected from one another. it’s a scary, horrible feeling; like she’s trapped in her own body. it does pass, and the longest it’s ever occurred was sixteen minutes. when she begins seeing cathleen, she is given ways to overcome when this occurs, mental and physical exercises to break free from the clasps of the upside down. this follows her way into adulthood though, never as bad when as a child, but still prominent. after she learns some ways to control it, it tends to occur just as she wakes up in the morning, waking to find her body betraying her. although being in bed, on her own, gives her time to work through it slowly, without feeling pressured or worried that anyone around her is scared for her. she doesn’t need to deal with prying (albeit caring) eyes, and can focus on herself.

• VISAGE.

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› millie bobby brown, (ages 10-13)

› jennifer connelly, (ages 14-17)

› mia sara, (ages 18-34)

› charlotte ritchie, (ages 35+)

i also use charlotte ritchie as my face claim for terry! i just love the idea of jane growing up to be a spitting image of her mother.

HAIR.

we love the curls. <3 but when her hair first starts growing in, the sensation is so foreign to her, and it resembles something akin to phantom pain. she hates it. the feeling that something is there when it shouldn’t be. her scalp is incredibly sensitive, and in the beginning, she does not take care of it in the way that she should. after the first three months, hopper has to cut a relatively large chunk out of the left side, because she hasn’t been brushing it, or tending to it, and it becomes a matted, strangled mess. then it becomes uneven, which she hates even more, so she asks him to cut the rest off and she basically starts from square one again. overtime she does properly tend to it, but it’s only about five months after the cut from hopper, does she get used to the feeling, and come to appreciate her curls. jane always has curly hair. when it starts growing out more, it becomes wavy rather than ringlets. never once in her life does she pick up a hair straightener. not to even test it out. her hair becomes so important to her, that the thought of something happening to it (ie a hot device burning it all off) really worries her..

POSTURE.

her back is always ridiculously straight, having near perfect posture, especially for a child her age. stemming from the fact that she was given no opportunity to slouch or fully relax while in the lab..

STRENGTH + MUSCLE.

jane has poor motor function and development as a result of growing up so sheltered to physical activity. her muscle development is very minimal and she has little coordination between her mind and physical movement. ie, hand-ball requires use of both mind and action: when to bounce the ball and an intended destination. she struggles with hand - eye coordination, and it would take her much longer to succeed in any sort of activity such as this given the lack of experience. in terms of fitness, she would be very behind in her age range, and would not be able to run very far before getting tired. she is only successful in this sort of area when she’s running on adrenaline..

HANDS.

the middle and thumb nail on her right hand became completely rotten from frostbite during her month living in the snow, and they no longer grow. her hand was immobile for a good few weeks, but it did end up healing for the most part, aside from the two nails. and those fingers do cramp up sometimes. she likes to wear nail polish frequently to hide the black rot, but the skin and cuticle always has a blue/black tinge..

SCARRING.

closing the gate affected jane physically and mentally more than the series portrayed. those veins that appear on her face whilst closing the gate, also form patterns across her entire body; hands, feet, legs, stomach. although they all do fade overtime, the markings on her left hand, and around her neck never disappear. while she hates them, hates that the upside down has physically scarred her, she never attempts to cover them up..

TEETH.

between seasons three and four, jane gets braces. like her hair, it takes a long time for her to properly tend to her teeth, brush them regularly and understand they need constant upkeep. in the lab, these things were all done for her, and she became very accustomed to not having to do it herself. her overall hygiene is relatively bad during her time in the cabin. i love millie’s vampire teeth, and keep them canon, but i also imagine her bottom centre teeth to be rather crooked. after her first trip to the dentist, she needs to have three teeth extracted due to them rotting. they’re all in the back though, so the gaps are not very noticeable..

SKIN.

jane is extremely pale. she has a vitamin d deficiency due to her lack of exposure to sunlight, and if she’s in the sun too long without proper protection, she burns incredibly fast. jane also hates make-up. she hates the way it makes her face feel. sometimes she will wear lip gloss; on very special occasions she may wear mascara, but that's the extent of it. the most make-up she ever wore in her life was when she was part of kali's gang. skincare falls under the same category of her hair and teeth: it was done for her in the lab, so she's not used to doing it herself. things like shaving, moisturising and plucking her eyebrows etc do not become of interest to her until her early twenties..

EYES.

jane experiences temporary blindness when she returns from the void. this gets better overtime as she comes into the strength of her powers and no longer needs the bath / blindfold / picture of somebody to find them, but sometimes it does still happen. when this does occur, her eyes turn a bright white, losing their pigmentation. her sight always returns within a half hour, but sometimes that sheer white lingers for days. she can see, but her actual hues can take a while to fade back in..

jewellery

jane actually wears a decent amount of jewellery! she loves wearing fancy clips and bows in her hair, alongside colourful scrunchies. she always wears a simple silver chain around her neck, with an opal pendant which belonged to terry, gifted to her by andrew. she never takes it off except for when she’s sleeping (as one night she woke up with it all tangled tightly around her neck). she loves wearing multiple bracelets and rings at one time, and has a fancy jewellery box that she thrifted from downtown hawkins which stores her growing collection of accessories. jane does have her ears pierced! it was one of the first things she did when starcourt mall opened— nancy took her to get them done. it’s very rare you’ll find jane without at least three rings on, and a pair of fancy earrings in her ears. even if the situation doesn’t call for fancy jewellery, you can bet she’ll show up in it.

In the winter of 1987, seventeen year old Janessa Ives finally finished what she unintentionally started, and sealed off the upside down forever. The extreme power it took to succeed in such a thing, however, destroyed all known traces of her abilities, leaving her in the same state of July 1985. After a week in the hospital under Sam Owens’ care, she returned home to Becky, spending another two weeks regaining her strength completely, whilst coming to understand a new way of life was required: one where she was normal. Although normal for her was a vastly different thing compared to everybody else. For starters, she did not return to school, having struggled the previous year and never really fitting into the regime. She gave it her best shot, but it was not to be.With excessive tutoring and assistance from Nancy Wheeler, community classes, Mrs Johnson’s continued aid, and Owens bringing in some specialists to help further her education, Jane finally began to understand and adapt to open learning. There was far less pressure as it was one-on-one, without all the social nightmares school provided. She spent the next three years catching up on the life she’d missed, working hard to further her education. While her speech impediment never fully improved, her writing and literacy skills showed extreme refinement.Two weeks after her twenty-first birthday, with the help of her friend (more akin to a sister) Sabrina Spellman, Jane opened a small shop in downtown Hawkins, simply named ‘Jane’s’ to continue her passion in sewing and designing. After mastering the skill for about seven years, she decided to expand her horizons. Her friends previously expressed that her talents could really benefit other people, and at long last, she agreed. She began small, mainly with girls requesting help with alterations for prom dresses. With funds (and no need to pay them back) from Sam, Sabrina and Becky, Jane designed her own line of clothes, just for fun. She never expected anyone to be interested in buying anything, merely putting them in the shop window to bring some life to the place, to express herself. And then more money started coming in from customers.Within a handful of months, she was a respectable business owner, with Max’s mathematical skills helping her deal with the books and records, and her friends helping out as much as they could. Soon, Jane started understanding how things worked to some degree, and could manage on her own, no longer needing so much help. She was content. Clothes were always a great expression of hers, and genuinely doing something she loved was most rewarding.An invite was sent out to her from a small fashion convention in Chicago, and if accepted, it would be the first time she left Hawkins since closing the gate and losing her powers. Part of her wanted to leave, to venture beyond the small town, but part of her also felt like she needed to defend it, to be there, just in case anything ever stirred up again from below. Even if she didn’t have her powers, she felt the responsibility laid solely on her. After some convincing from Becky, Jane accepted. The invite allowed one guest to accompany, but she decided to go alone, believing it was the best thing to do for herself. It was a three day convention, and she had the time of her life.Until, on the final day, all packed up and ready to catch the bus back to Hawkins, the public transport failed her. She intended to catch the 7:26pm bus to get back into town a little after 10– but it never showed. She called Becky from a payphone, stranded and alone, asking if she could pick her up, but by the time she arrived, Jane had been left out there for a little under three hours. (Becky may have broken some speed limits to reach her niece quickly.) Jane developed a slight fever from the incident, laid up in bed with a nasty cough. After three days, she took a turn for the worse. When Jane suddenly fell unconscious, Becky was forced to take her to the hospital where they waited for sam’s arrival. Sam and his team were the only ones equipped to handle Jane’s needs, knowing her body network was different to others, and the risk posed if any staff at Hawkins Memorial were to uncover anything about her. Her infection turned into pneumonia, and she was laid up in the hospital for six weeks under his care. She spent the first thirteen days comatose. After much research and study, with body scans and blood tests, Sam believed he worked out the reason for her drastic change in health.When Terry was subjected to the “hippie crap” back in the day, and a multitude of unknown substances were put into her system, it ultimately affected Jane more than originally thought. They discovered Jane had abnormal body genetics and an incredibly weak immune system due to what she endured in the womb, alongside what she went through closing the gate. The way the upside down embedded itself inside her, fragments of the malevolent place eating away at her blood: an infestation. The only thing that kept her alive from these combining factors had been the strength of her abilities. Now they were gone. They acted like a barrier in her body, protection against those abnormal genetics and supernatural effects breaking down her immune system from the inside out. Without her abilities, those once strong walls crumbled down. The bad seeped in, as it always did. Sam suggested the NINA Project, an idea constructed long ago, but was never put into action, in an attempt to restore her powers. When she heard the conditions of said project, she refused, wanting to have nothing to do with a lab-like environment, even if it saved her.Becky argued the point, as did her friends, but it was no use. Jane had the final word and she prepared for the upcoming years.Jane’s outlook, at first, was distraught. The idea of death angered her. Hadn’t she already given enough? She grew angry, withdrawn, and for months, did not leave her house, not even for work. But her attitude soon began to change. She loved life, even if it had done her so wrong. She loved being alive, she loved the most mundane and most extraordinary aspects; she was not going to spend her final years alone and miserable.She wrote a bucket list. She did not want to travel anywhere by plane, but she did want to do some venturing, even if it was just road trips. She and her friends went camping. They went to the theatre to see live shows. They went to amusement parks. She continued designing. Even though her body grew weaker every single day, she still loved life, and accepted her fate. She accepted who, and what she was, and saw there was beauty in herself where she’d never seen it. Where she was told it didn’t exist. She accepted that her powers were part of her, and that people loved her with or without them.Jane had been forced her whole life to use them for bad, or to defeat the bad. They were never allowed to be hers. She was more machine than girl, with expectations coming from people in her life about how and when she should use them. She associated them to science, to evil doctors and demons– so that's what they became. Jane was born with a gift, something beautiful, but it became exploited and used for all the wrong reasons, so in her point of view, it became a curse. During her last year, she realised the truth, and like everything else, saw the beauty she once had.Evidently, this cathartic epiphany was what saved her life.Like when regaining her powers when she was sixteen, strange things began happening around her. But this time, it wasn’t windows cracking or lights going out– it was dead flowers growing back, it was rainy days turned sunny. Jane, mere months away from her deathbed, began giving off a brand new aura, something not so dark and hidden, but bright, entrancing. She didn’t recognise it at first, but felt the change happening in her body, the strength returning.After two weeks, she set up a meeting with Sam Owens by herself, and asked him to run the same tests he did when she was in the hospital last; she wanted to see if there was any improvement. He was only too happy to abide, working tirelessly himself ever since her diagnosis to find some miracle cure. But no such cure could come from science, the thing that had plagued his patient all her life: it had to come from her. And it did. The results showed minor, yet evident changes, the disease-like infestation somewhat smaller: like chemotherapy fighting back against cancer. That thing fighting was her powers, a slow restoration.Jane asked Sam to keep the news between themselves, and weekly check-ups were made. One month passed, and Jane began training to use her powers again, asking him to stay with her in case anything went awry. This went on for three months. Jane’s friends and family openly commented on how good she looked, and began questioning her if something was going on, something they didn’t know about. She refused to tell anyone about her meetings with him, just in case, not wanting to give false hope. But at the end of that third month, although Jane would still suffer from fatigue and pain at the most random moments, they both agreed that her powers were practically restored, the scans evidence of the progress made. She thanked him for her help, kissed his cheek, and hugged him tight. He did not let go until she did– he’d begun looking at her as his own child. And he, the closest thing to a father she’d ever have.

Sam went back to the Ives home with Jane that night, where he explained to Becky what had been going on, the work they’d done, that he believed Jane would survive this. Although initially hurt that she wasn’t told, Becky was overjoyed with the news, as was everyone when it was made known. The next few months were taken at a slow pace, with check ups continuing but now with Becky there for support, and friends constantly asking how things were going.By 1995, 25 year old Janessa Ives reclaimed her powers fully, and took back her life. She continued working until she was 30, living a relatively simple routine in Hawkins. She worked hard at her job, and found a kind of pattern to help her integrate fully, properly, into her modern world. She tried, she tried so hard, but soon came to realise that it was not meant to be. Even in a small town like Hawkins, almost separated from the rest of the world, she realised that the mundane, the normal, was not what she required to continue. After ten years of trying to heal from her past, to move on, she had come to a sort of standstill. She had a family now, she had friends, she had security– she had everything she thought she ever wanted, but it wasn’t right. Jane understood that despite the good things that happened to her, her now “normal” life, what she’d always wanted, actually did not suit her in the way she’d have once thought.In 1998, the film Practical Magic was released in theatres, and after she and Mike saw it together, Jane finally understood what she was. A Witch, just like the girls from the film. That’s what she wanted to be, to identify as. She wanted to use her gifts in a freeing sense, to finally make them part of her. Seeing a house like that, seeing two grown women in their element made Jane realise that’s what she was missing. she needed the space to discover who she was, and would never find that cooped up in a normal town, surrounded by normal people. She began doing research on witches, and wondered if there were more people out there like her, if she could ever have a “coven”. She thought that might be a bit of a stretch, but she wanted to start associating herself to that kind of magic, to develop her organic abilities and connect more to the world around her. There was still so much she didn't know about herself. About what she could accomplish.One cold winter’s night, without a second thought, Jane found a stray ginger cat on the way home from work, and took him back with her. Her seeded fear of the animals no longer ran through her mind. She named the cat Sally, after Sandra Bullock’s character in the film. Also, after Sandra's character, Jane copied the letter written by her, in the fanciest writing she could muster, and kept it close, always."Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but, there is no man, Gilly. Only that moon."Her access to the void was completely shut off, not able to visit even under her most desperate attempts. No longer did she get any nose bleeds when her powers were used. Or headaches. Or sleepless nights. There was no strain with her gifts, just peace. Soon, after much research, she found an online forum relating to “Green Witches”, and decided that is what she has become. Who she wanted to be."She embraces the power of nature; she draws energy from the Earth and the Universe; she relies on natural objects like stones and gems to commune with the land she lives off of; she uses plants, flowers, oils, and herbs for healing; she calls on nature for guidance; and she respects every living being no matter how small."“The Green Witch understands that the earth incorporates the planet and all living things upon it, including animals, plants, and people. She understands that humanity impacts the natural world, not only by how we treat it but also by the feelings and energies of individuals.It’s likely the spiritual ancestresses of modern green witches who chose to live apart from the centre of community life. Though they may have made their homes on the edge of town, they much would’ve preferred to make their homes in nature.”She needed to be on her own, for the first time by choice, in her whole life. She wanted it. She asked one last favour of Sam Owens, perhaps an unusual one. She requested help for a new home, somewhere closer to the woods, where she could be surrounded by nature, somewhere she could make her own. build from the ground up. A fresh start. A few weeks later, he came to her with an offer: an old, small cottage on the outskirts of noblesville, indiana, not too deep in the woodlands there. A half hour drive from Hawkins. She battled with conflict at first, not sure how she felt about being so far- she could not drive, so if something bad happened, she might not be able to help. Owens implored the fact that she'd done enough, if, god forbid, something did rise from below, it would not be her responsibility.It was a rundown piece of property, completely abandoned, but if she wanted it, Sam could pull the strings to legally put it in her name. After he took her out to see it, despite countless flaws and extreme renovations that would need to be done, she fell in love. And after discovering its history, grew incredibly attached.The house and its garden once belonged to a family of three, passed down for generations. Although tragedy struck in the late sixties, when the three week year old daughter died due to neonatal infections, and the parents committed suicide after their loss. Jane decided this needed to be her home, to bring some life back into it, to honour another family who never got a chance to be happy. She began the renovation work over the next week, with the help of her friends and family, and some of Owens’ own team who had taken a special liking to Jane.When she turned thirty, Jane closed her shop permanently and began the move. It took six weeks to decorate, to get everything to her liking. Everyone offered to stay the first night with her, but she politely refused, wanting to spend it alone with Sally and Salem, her two cats. The following week, she did not leave her house, feeling a sense of peace she’d never experienced in her whole life. She worked on the gardens immediately, but found there was little she needed to do– connected so deeply to the earth now, it was like the flora knew she was there, and her presence alone sprung them back to life.Jane visits Hawkins at least once a week, but instead of catching public transport, rides her bike. A lovely old fashioned contraption, with a basket of fresh daisies attached to the front. It was a three hour ride, but she enjoyed it nevertheless, (unless the weather was bad, and she’d catch the bus or Becky picks her up). She usually stays in Hawkins that night of the week, at Becky’s house, but is never left conflicted whether she made the right choice leaving. She’s where she’s meant to be. Her friends and family are always welcome to visit her, and stay as long as they like. Initially she liked the tranquillity of it all, especially in the first few months when she was adjusting to the new lifestyle, but as time goes on she does invite her people over more often, welcoming them into her new way of living, if they want to be a part of it.Modern therapies never worked for her, not in the way they should have. It kept her going for a while, but none of it was freeing. With this new lifestyle, she began defining herself by her relationship to the world around her (once feeling so out of place, now knowing exactly who she was), by her ethics, and her affinity to the natural world. This was not the path that was meant to be laid out for her, she knew that much– but it’s the only one that made sense now, after everything she’d been through. She still enjoyed modern aspects of the world; going to the cinemas, eating at fancy restaurants, watching soap operas (she had a small television in her cottage, after all), and never planned to cut that out completely. She always wanted to be a modern girl, and believed some part of her was still made for that. But none of it can free her, can keep her in touch with her fragile soul, or help heal wounds of the past.Jane’s newfound aura is obvious; her friends became accustomed to it relatively soon, but when she returns to town, or is out in public wherever it may be, society is either drawn to or away from her. To some degree, people understand her unique presence, almost knowing she’s not of this world, and are thus drawn to her. Where others can sense that she’s strange, unusual, and directly avoid her.Jane learns to grow on her own, to thrive and accomplish with and without loved ones at her side. Sometimes she can be isolated, preferring days where she doesn't speak a word to anyone. She may be alone, but not once does she feel lonely. She is finally at peace.

• BACK.

teresa ives grew up in a poor village in the south, had barely a cent to her name, nor possessions to claim her own. alas, despite such circumstances, she had a roof over her head, a loving sister, thus sought happiness in even the smallest of moments. their village, hawks nest, was not always so run down, in fact a short five years prior, it was a thriving place to live. a fight of good vs evil in the form of a dark sorcerer and a queen who watched over their lands, set many small villages to the brink of destruction, ripping them to shreds with barely a second glance. many men were lost, choosing to go off to aid their queen, fight in her gruesome battle; the numbers of hawks nest and many villages like it suffered incomprehensible losses. eventually, the battle was won, but the little people, those who were caught up in the crossfire, were forgotten about. the rich celebrated amongst their castles and towers, while timid homes were forced to fend for themselves.teresa was always a headstrong child, brave and stubborn alike. barely two weeks after said battle was claimed to be over, she set off in the attempts to get some help. her home was dying, numbers decreased; each day was spent aiding labor work as the villages tried restoring some kind of peace. in her travels, she ventures into unknown territories; realising that if she went any further, she wouldn’t be able to find her way home. disheartened, she turns back around, deciding to aid her friends and family best she can. however, just before the return trek, the sight of something beautiful strikes, just ahead, almost like a mirage. she follows her pathway a little more, where she comes face to face with a wishing well. the grass surrounding it is lusher, flowers spring every which way, birds practically sing lullabies in the trees… she’d heard of such magical items, prepared to grant a wish to anyone with pure intentions. although not in a way that is expected. teresa tries her luck, places her hands upon the concrete brick and looks directly down into what appears to be a bottomless pit. she wishes for change. for her village to replenish after the horrible war, for her family to have an ounce of power. she is granted no reaction by the great wishing well, so turns on her heels and begins the journey back home. what the maiden was unaware of, though, was that a child blooms in her stomach. nor does she witness the gold trail of stardust escaping from the well the moment her back turned, absorbing directly into her, into her stomach.months pass, and in that time, she discovers her pregnancy. the child’s father perished in the war; only seven men returned to their families. her child would never know her father, andrew, but teresa would speak stories of him, of his bravery to her baby. she was at a great peace with herself, excited for her child, for this new chapter in her life. her parents are not supportive, as they don’t want another mouth to feed. babies are difficult, they claim, and that they don’t have the space. becky is supportive of her sister, helping her build a cot, a little wooden mobile, preparing for the birth of her niece.in this time, a man claiming to be a duke of the queen who’d won the war comes to town. martin brenner, a seemingly kind and generous man, with an array of promises to help restore the village by the word and action of his queen. he arrives with countless men, strong, and willing to begin work straight away. slowly but surely the village is restored to its former glory. it was never a rich village to begin with, but brenner and his men offer more than the people could possibly expect. it’s expanded, new houses built with stronger materials to protect against the harsh weathers, and new modes of transportation brought in. a library is built with books brought from the castle itself, and things couldn’t be better. martin integrates himself into the lives of the citizens, as he becomes much loved and a good friend to all. he listens to mothers gloat about the talent of their children, listens with an eager eye. teresa wonders if this is the result of her wish.janessa ives is eventually born, although due to the (then unknown) nature of the child, teresa dies giving birth. the baby is a particularly frail and small child. her parents and becky quickly realise this is no ordinary babe, as the moment she opens her mouth to cry, all the windows shatter. the power and magic can practically be felt radiating off her. becky leaves to get help, what to do with her sister’s body. she returns with none other than martin and two of his men, who respectfully remove the body and request becky’s aid to assist them. upon becky’s departure, martin speaks privately to their parents, eyeing the still bawling baby ever eagerly. the ives’ displeasure of the child is all obvious, now blaming her for their daughter’s death on top of it all. martin claims he can rid their woes should they allow him to care for the child instead. offering them a large sum of money to insist the baby died not long after terry, clearly unfit for the world; her size couldn’t last their harsh winters without a mothers touch. they accept his offer. martin steals the child away in the night, where becky and the rest of the village would assume her deceased.martin’s men continue in the village only for another week, to keep up appearances, before following his trail. he was in fact, not a duke of the queen, BUT a very rich man with a great plan in mind and promises to keep. for years, he had been scouring the realm in order to seek out magical children; some born with magic, some cursed, some taught. able to pay off anyone he pleases to do his dirty work, spies lurk in the trees, in the oceans, in the skies… on a very special day, a report and witness was made back to him: a young maiden by a wishing well, making a pure request. the gold dust had been seen entering the woman’s womb, unbeknownst to herself. without hesitation, believing this could be what he was waiting for, set off with an army of his men under a guise of goodwill, a false name under the queen herself. he implemented himself very carefully into hawks nest, and left with the item he specifically sought out. everything had gone according to plan.janessa was taken to an old manor protected by a magical wall. this area was located deep in the heart of an enchanted forest, though anyone who came by it, could walk straight through, an illusion to hide it away. ten other children were already there by the time janessa arrived, forced into horrible tests to determine their magic, to very well reach into their souls and seek where the core of their abilities lie. each child, although possessing some kind of power, so far had failed to martin's standards, lacking any true strength.janessa, now known as eleven, as a magical brand from hot iron was seared into her forearm: xi. she would spend the first ten years of her life in this manor where she'd be submitted to magical tests to determine the weight of her abilities. it would seem this was indeed the child martin was waiting for. at a mere two years of age, her magic stood independently, although untamed due to her youth, it had the potential to be harnessed for his own personal gain. she only knows blank walls and confined spaces. out the windows she catches glimpses of the great forest surrounding, but only when being led from one room to the next. she lives practically in isolation, not even granted contact to the other children of the manor. martin pushes and pushes; her body grows weak but her mind grows strong. there is only so much one child can take. her magic was born from purity and goodness, and she has only been subjected to malevolence. the conflict can no longer last, as opposites wear thin…

• BACK.

she is forced to enter the void on frequent occasions, where she only needs to close her eyes, whisper an incantation, and wake inside her very conscious. she’s able to look into the lives of anyone she wishes, walk along worlds as if they were at her very feet. martin forces her primarily to seek out locations of old buried magic in the forms of potions, vials and spells. his men then set off on a journey to locate what they can from eleven’s word, and return it to him. she listens in on kings and queens, on vital conversations of specific kingdoms. she hears battle plans, she hears strategy, she hears anything and everything martin forces her to. she is physically tortured, brutalised with these old magics to see how her own will react against it. to see if it can be combined. one night, during one of these tests, her body decides its had enough…a great burst of energy emits from her chest, unable to take any more dark properties within her skin; her own magic reacts. her heart explodes. a guttural, inhuman scream fills the entire manor as she’s lost to unconsciousness…when she wakes, she is surrounded by smoke and ash, blazing fire burning deep. it doesn’t touch her. she walks through it unscathed. over the bodies of her captors, of martin, of the countless men and women who lived their lives to make hers miserable. after an hour of searching, she manages to find the entrance inside the great manor. she sees the other children for the first time. checks to see if any survived this attack from her own magic; she leaves alone. the magical wall had been stripped of its properties too, and she’s able to depart. eventually the flames would engulf the entire premises– only eleven would know it ever existed.dressed in rags, the child wanders aimlessly into the forest before her, barely knowing what to do, wishing she’d died in the fire alongside all those other children. there rests a great beast in her chest, capable of killing hundreds without even knowing. what was she? where did she come from? after two hours wandering, she collapses from exhaustion, welcoming the peace of the dark.upon waking once more, she jolts back, terrified, as a beautiful doe peers her down, nudging her nose right against the child’s bald head. eleven climbs to her feet to run away from the creature, but the doe pursues, practically chasing her down. still so tired and no longer running on adrenaline, eleven stands face to face with the animal, expecting it to hurt her, perhaps eat her. it does nothing, merely stares a few moments longer, before nudging her head and beginning a trek back. she walks only a few steps before turning her head and nudging it once more, as if instigating eleven to follow her. cautiously, she does, and the two walk nearly three hours in an uncomfortable silence. eleven is fidgety, unsure if this is some kind of trick; perhaps martin wasn’t dead, perhaps it was all an illusion to see if eleven would leave if she had the opportunity. perhaps she would be punished very soon. alas, the further walked, the more beautiful the forest becomes. she has never seen anything like it. night soon falls, and the doe nests a small home in a large patch of butterweed flowers. making herself comfortable within the flowers, she once again nudges her head, issuing the child to sit with her. following these odd requests, she manages to gather some sleep in the lush meadows, right beside the doe. she did not see that every step she took, every footprint in the earth, left small seeds for new flowers to bloom. beauty trailed behind her._the morality of her powers, her very soul, was sensed by all creatures within this forest. attracted to it, many of the living animals sought out the child, like a moth to a flame; desired closeness to what they saw to be a deity. eleven would continue her life in this great wood, surrounded by an array of animals who cared for her, as she began to care for them. a group of pixies fashioned her new clothes, spoke to her, helped her learn how to communicate. she is entirely forest bound for two years, gaining control of her magic, using it to protect her friends and herself should she ever require it. communication is minimal, as love and conversation are expressed through actions and emotions rather than speaking; her life is silent in many ways, and it’s peaceful. she can make new flowers blossom, recover lost items, offer peace by the mere touch of her hand. soul is worn on her sleeve as her life grows calm.soon, she discovers that she can use the void not only to peer in upon other locations, but physically transport herself there. places outside her forest. it’s an odd thought: this was her home, it was safe and secure. she didn’t know what lay beyond set boundaries… but perhaps she wanted to. when discovering this power, she decides to seek something far more valuable: where she came from. who she came from. entering the void, she holds her hands over her heart, and asks for her mother. she is met with smoke and sadness, there are no answers. there is no face. only a name, teresa, and an image of a little lively village presents itself. eleven decides to follow it. she casts a spell of protection over the forest whence she came, assuring it to be untouched by new arrivals in her absence, protecting her family.she needs to know who she is.she arrives in hawks nest after physically planting herself in its location. it is a literal fall from the sky, and she lands horribly on the ground, scraped and bloodied from the merciless transport. here, she finds becky, her aunt, after asking the villagers for a woman named teresa. they direct her to the woman, where eleven’s life is turned upside down. as is her aunts. eleven begins calling herself janessa, connecting with the only family she’s aware of – grandparents both having passed away – and spends two weeks in the village. although, the premises is unwelcoming of magic due to its history; the people are immediately aware that she does not belong with them. she promises becky she will return to see her again, and thanks her immensely for the time and history she has granted. janessa has a tiny piece of herself reclaimed. seeing a whole other world, a new place, also, was indeed exciting. she was meant to see more of them…returning to the forest, to her family, she tells them she must see what else is out there. she will not be gone forever: she will return every full moon. her protection upon the forest remains, as she comes into her powers, maturing alongside them.she visits a vast array of places; kingdoms, cities all from other realms. she is constantly on the road, and anywhere she goes, many can feel her power. it’s enchanting, it’s pure. janessa vastly becomes a myth of sorts over her years, never staying in one place more than a week, though spending her life soaking up the beauty she was deprived so long of. some places she visits are war torn and suffering in poverty; she stays there the longest, using her gifts to replenish the locations and give what she can. she learns by seeing, by hearing; it takes years before communication skills are truly free flowing and comprehensible, but she matures very quickly. silence is often an attribute. she becomes known only as the mage, a ghostly figure who walks the realms and assists where she can. she doesn’t have any true companions in her travels, and always returns back home as she said she would.

1996.

› she doesn't work too much on sewing nor promoting herself through flyers or word of mouth; instead putting full attention and focus into her job at the library. she loved the job: the atmosphere was always peaceful enough, allowing her to concentrate on each individual task. she learns a lot as her reading skills continued vastly improving.› she’s eventually asked to fill in for one month at woodsboro high school, as the current library assistant was leaving town. she welcomes the slight shift in pace, and is trained to fulfil new duties in the change of environment.› during her month there, jane befriends christina carpenter, a studious student who spends some afternoons studying while jane works. they often chat, and sometimes christina drives jane home, as she tended to walk everywhere.› she had to kick out stu macher and tatum riley in her second week as they were kissing in an established ‘make out’ spot. tatum told her she should really have some fun and stop being a fuddy duddy. frankly, jane didn’t know what that even meant.› with only a week to go at the school, the news of two students murdered quickly gets around, and the town shifts from its seemingly carefree tone. after the news, jane considers going back to hawkins, but decides against it, figuring it didn’t have anything to do with her, that surely the killer would be caught soon.› tatum invites her to the party on friday night, saying she would look hot in a miniskirt, and a couple of college guys would be going: she might get lucky. jane was extremely uncertain, especially given a party seemed like the last thing that should’ve been going on. after much contemplation, she figured it was time she started living like a normal person. she missed out on the normality of high school; it could be fun, right?› when arriving, (not in a mini-skirt) she mainly hangs around randy, finding his narrations and knowledge of all things film rather intriguing. they chat briefly about the timeline of cinema, as jane is a huge fan of old hollywood, and nothing new ever really interested her as much. compared to films with the likes of lauren bacall or joan crawford, that is.› she remains with him after majority of the students rush out to see principal himbry, utterly disgusted that it’s apparently a funny event to see the body.› when randy is attacked, she’d been drifting off to sleep a little on the armchair beside him. she woke up to him suddenly jumping off the couch (even now, not a light sleeper) startled to see ghost face with a raised knife. she runs with randy too, but is stabbed in the shoulder and the pure shock of it all makes her fall to the ground.› the masked man continues his route outside, clearly not too invested in her just yet.› jane scrambles up the stairs, trying to find somewhere to hide and regain herself. she manages to hide in the bathroom, locks the door, and attempts move things in front of it, but the blood loss causes her legs to give away. working on controlling her breathing best she can while trying to stop the bleeding, voices from below eventually get her attention.› she sneaks out slowly, just in time to see randy shot by billy. he takes notice of her, too, and she takes a bullet to the leg. the force of impact makes her hit her head on the ground, knocking her unconscious.› she's startled awake by the gunshots issuing billy's demise, and carefully makes her way down to randy, sidney and gale. she's taken to the hospital light headed and on the verge of collapsing again. she manages to stay awake the entire trip, as becky and hopper (her emergency contacts) are called and arrive just in time to see her leg wound being stitched up.

2022.

› working in the library, she quickly catches up on the history of woodsboro, the insanity and horror of it all.› she promotes her seamstress abilities on social media alongside flyers; nancy helps her with the social media aspects, as jane never had a specific liking for it. she does love face time though, and being able to contact her friends so quickly and easily.› jane meets mindy meeks-martin through a text on instagram about fixing up a denim jacket that’d been torn right down the sleeve. they form a slight bond, and jane finds mindy very intriguing. they exchange numbers, and while they’re hardly the best of friends, there’s a nice connection brewing.› she's in woodsboro for three months before tara is attacked. knowing that she is a good friend of mindy’s, she texts whether it would be appropriate for her to visit the hospital merely to offer support. she tags along with mindy and brings a bouquet of flowers and a homemade batch of chocolate chip cookies (her personal best). she meets the entire friend group, alongside sam, and remains around them.› she goes with mindy to the club (because jane being taught how to shoot pool?? mhmm good image). as a whole though, she stays out of things, believing it not to be her place. she visits tara once more, with a new knitted woolly scarf, because the hospital was super cold when she visited. she also knit one for sam, because she has sisters, (sabrina, nancy, temperance), and can’t imagine being in sam’s position. she remembers all too well watching over max in that hospital bed, and again offers her support and if they need anything, to not hesitate to reach out.› when wes and judy are killed, jane seriously considers leaving and returning to hawkins. this isn’t her fight– she wants to live as peacefully as she can, and not put herself at risk ever again. but she truly liked judy; the woman was always very kind to her, and wes seemed like a lovely boy despite how little she spoke to him.› mindy invites jane to the party in memorial for wes, and she goes to pay her respects, believing it would be more a memorial service than full out party. mindy invites her to watch stab, but when it begins getting too gruesome, she leaves and looks for amber to ask if there was anything she could do for her before going home. because like crazy horror movies, overpacked parties were even more so not her thing.› she returns only a moment after samantha hits ghostface with a lamp, and gets caught up in the heat of blaming and pointing fingers. being more or less an outsider to this tight-knit group, she’s immediately assumed the killer, before liv returns, coated in blood. when amber reveals herself, jane runs off with the others, but is shot in the leg (bc love leg scarring parallels!). despite the training, growth, and the way she’s moved on from hawkins, being injured in such close quarters to that monstrous bite scar, it completely freaks her out, making her feel like that kid again. she freezes up, as amber steps over her and goes after her main targets. the panic attack makes her immobile.› she collects herself through techniques and the help she’d been provided over the years; she finds her mind once more, but is bleeding out and realises she can’t do all that much. the bullet is lodged just beneath her knee, not a clean through shot. by the time she’s on her wobbly feet, the voices in the kitchen draw her out.› gathering herself, she remembers what it feels like to run on nothing but adrenaline, the flight or fight responses; she wanted to help.› armed with a fire poker, she unsteadily creeps towards the kitchen; efforts and attempts in vein, as amber sees her immediately and she’s shot in the shoulder. falling to the ground, she hits her head hard enough to knock her unconscious.› the next time she wakes, she’s in the hospital, becky and hopper beside her, holding both her hands.

• BACK.

terry succeeds in getting jane back, although under extremely different circumstances. terry and becky, having grown up in jericho, were both vastly aware of the looming nevermore academy. although becky held little interest, terry was constantly wondering about the happenings within the school, doing as much research as she could regarding the insides. overtime, she befriends larissa weems, a shape-shifting student, and the girls grow close very fast. this relationship remains until terry and becky’s parents divorce, and their mother moves to indiana with custody over the girls. larissa and terry keep in touch through letters and phone calls, and when they visit their father, terry always spends time with larissa. their relationship never falters despite the distance.terry’s life continues as the show portrays. although she would spend close to a year in the hospital after giving birth due to extreme complications, alongside what her doctors consider postpartum depression. albeit, terry knows she’s right, that her daughter was stolen, her claims are considered insane remarks, considered illness from the trauma of losing her daughter– she’s stuck in the hospital, and transferred to the psych ward. overtime she learns to play her doctors and act as if she’s healing and coming to terms with her reality in order to be released. she’s back home eleven months after giving birth, where she would find becky has set up home there too, planning to look after her. terry immediately begins planning ways to get her daughter back, with becky in disbelief.after six years, and attempts to sue brenner and get authorities involved fail, terry decides she needs to get jane back on her own accord. she visits jericho without informing her sister, after an urgent phone call to her old friend, now headmaster of the boarding school, nevermore. she explains her situation to larissa: the place her daughter is trapped inside, and the certain abilities jane is sure to have. terry requests a great favour: for larissa, under the guise of a doctor within the lab, to retrieve jane and bring her home. larissa agrees on the count of their old friendship, and that when the child is old enough, she attend nevermore so her gifts can be nurtured and respected. should she occupy any. terry in turn agrees, and explains that she desires to move back to vermont regardless, away from the haunting life of indiana.

• BACK.

when jane is eight, larissa succeeds in the mission, smuggling the child out of the lab with the well known and respected facade of dr. brenner himself, (knowing jane would do anything the man requested of her). larissa gives jane a sleeping draught in a bottle of water to keep her relaxed for the whole drive. larissa drives the straight fifteen hours without stopping before reaching jericho. eleven wakes up in the hospital wing of nevermore academy, surrounded by two unknown women. there she stays for two weeks, while her vitals are checked, health measured, and life explained. jane learns the truth of her existence after careful explanation, that she never needs to return to that place– she was safe. larissa informs terry that if anyone attempted to come after them, the power of nevermore would be behind her.jane would spend the next few years with her mother and aunt (becky called when jane was released from the hospital wing) in a comfortable apartment in the heart of bennington, a three hour drive from jericho. it would take jane a year before truly considering them family, that this was her life now. jane is raised very sheltered on the part of her extremely overprotective mother and aunt. she’s home-schooled, and although she does leave the apartment it’s only with her mother beside her. jane’s abilities at this point are sporadic and unreliable. going from seven years of forced training and experiments, to an extremely nurturing home and lifestyle, wreaked havoc on every nerve in her body and left her at a standstill. she continued to use the void as means of looking back on her old life, even peek into the memories of her mother and aunt– on that front she was constantly prepared. however her telekinesis was unused and weak.she begins at nevermore when she’s thirteen, classed as a psychic due to telekinesis and her use of the void. jane is initially shy and unsociable; although majority of the student body are pleasant towards her and she towards them; at the end of the day she doesn’t specifically have any friends. overtime, jane does join the archery club, finding it to be a source of concentration and helps her multi - tasking skills. she also finds a passion in the library, the vast array of books ranging from history to strange fiction. she borrows out a new book each week, which excels her creativity and english literature. it all grants a sense of freedom she’d never deemed possible. she loves her family with her whole heart, although before attending nevermore, was rather smothered. as the months go on, her confidence grows. she loves merely strolling throughout the school grounds, and within the town. it’s relaxing and very comforting.

janessa ives’ gifts were prominent by the time she was two years old, making her an extraordinary fairy, but a great target for those of dark desires. teresa ives, a fairy of portals, gave birth to her child on the planet fallet. andrew rich, jane’s father, was tragically struck down before the child turned two. a great warrior for the royal family of fallat, and the kings personal body guard; a short- lived attack on the planet killed six residents, andrew counted as the seventh. terry returned to her home planet rot after his death, to be with her sister becky, where the girls would raise the child together.martin brenner, a mediocre wizard obsessed with the prophecy of serius facetus, lived his whole life trying to connect the three sacred planets in order to release the creature of destruction. purely power hungry with a need to control, he gained a small but significant following of witches, wizards and warriors alike, all who followed his lead with the great desire to ignite serius facetus, and cleanse the magic dimension of goodness and light. although, as many know, such a prophecy has never been proven true nor false, meaning there was no solid evidence or confirmation that such a creature even existed. brenner was determined, knew that this beast must exist somewhere– he merely needed to harness the right power to reach it. he sent out his most powerful followers to each of the three planets: fallat, orez and rot, in order to better understand the planets and the power source occupied within each realm. a powerful witch only known as astrianna, ventured out to fallat, where she discovered terry’s unique power to open portals into any realm, at any time or place. believing this power to be beneficial to brenner’s cause, perhaps another way of reaching the creature of destruction, she continued spying on the woman in an attempt to understand the extremities of her gifts. here, she would discover the woman had a two year old daughter, who was evidently showing signs of very early, powerful magic. alas, a random attack upon the planet (which had nothing to do with brenner’s people) had terry’s life upturned in tragedy. astrianna lost their trace after terry left fallat, and deemed the opportunity missed.however, upon rediscovering terry’s location two years later, astrianna immediately understood that the child inherited the same abilities as her mother, unknowingly opening portals from a mere six months of age, to which terry would have to quickly close off. informing brenner of the child, he instructed astrianna to kidnap jane and bring her to the under realm where he could study her powers. astrianna was successful in her mission, killing becky and severely wounding terry in the process. the power could practically be felt radiating off the four year old. brenner believed if he could properly mold the girl, that one day she would be able to align the three planets, or at least assist in the cause.by the time jane was six, brenner and his people began to understand the true power of the girl, when they discovered her ability to enter the void, a place existing inside the cracks of the magic dimension, to which very few magical beings were ever able to contact. in entering the void, jane was able to look into the lives of any planet or person, and spy on them. brenner quickly deemed his initial goals worthless in comparison to what he could now gain from the child. able to listen in on every royal family of the dimension, every person of power; understand their capabilities, their plans of state. with such information, he could bring down entire worlds without even needing magic.this was jane’s life from the age of seven to thirteen. she had scattered memories of an old life, a loving home and family, although assumed it to be a sign of wishful thinking. upon entering the void, her body goes into a state of paralysis, unable to break free unless someone physically touches her. the void is all she truly knows, stuck inside the darkness, forced to spy on strangers, harbor their most secret conversations so they can be reported back to brenner. sometimes she spends days inside, stuck inside her own head, unable to retreat until deemed appropriate. until someone wakes her from the dark. her body is incredibly weak and frail by the time she turns thirteen; malnourished and unused, her mind is ever strong but her physical body is slowly dying. physical tests are run on her to understand other magic she possesses, although due to it being untrained and unable to shine, it’s considered unimportant. by this point, gaining any true winx seemed near impossible.one day, she’s instructed to peer in upon miss faragonda, headmistress of alfea and former company of light member. alfea holds a great array of magic and secrets, and jane spends close to three days watching the woman, and discovering the insides of the school. however, it’s the first time jane’s presence doesn’t go unnoticed, as faragonda looks straight into her eyes, and asks who she is. this is the first conversation spoken in private, where each word isn’t echoed for brenner to uncover. fargonda senses it’s a child hidden in the shadows, and tells her not to be frightened, that she wants to know who she’s speaking to. before jane is able to answer, she’s pulled out from the void, back into her looming reality. brenner assumes there must be some protection over alfea which restricts jane being able to see into the school. the child does not contradict him, and keeps the strange interaction to herself. there was something… good lying in wait.

• back.

without permission, jane again visits the strange woman, to which faragonda immediately returns her presence, reaching out to nothing more than her shadowy figure. jane never says a word, but allows herself to peer in upon the livelihood of the school. the colours, the joy, the spectacle of it– she didn’t believe such a thing could exist. over the course of three weeks, these silent interactions propel jane with a kind of power never felt before; it tingles her heart and ignites her feeble body to a sense of life. there’s another woman by faragonda’s side by the fourth visit, a woman who repeats the name ‘jane’ over and over like her life depended on it. she’s blessed with a strange sort of hope. a hope, which one fateful night, with faragonda’s direction and assistance, allows her to open a portal leading straight to the gates of alfea. she walks through it, successful, before collapsing outside the schooljane would wake eight days later in the infirmary, with that woman from the void at her side, and another woman she believed to be fictitious. the attack on terry left her in a magical coma for nearly three years. when she woke, and after nine months of intense therapy to regain her powers and physical stability, she began the near impossible search for her missing child. every so often she would feel jane, sense a shadowy presence, but nothing tangible enough to follow. after two years of searching as many realms as possible, she eventually turned to her old headmistress for help. if she ever had a sign, felt something not quite right in the atmosphere, no matter how tiny it may seem, she wanted to be alerted. terry explained jane’s powers, the intensity of them from birth; merely asked faragonda not to dismiss anything. she agreed, even though there was no certainty the girl was even alive. it proved successful, as faragonda’s first whiff of a lost child in the dimension immediately had her calling terry, truly believing it could be the missing ives.jane spends twenty three days in the alfea infirmary, poked and prodded at by the most knowledgeable witch doctors in all magix. terry slowly but surely explains who she is, the day she was lost, how sorry she is it took so long to find her. jane believes her, but hardly says two words in that first initial month. mother and daughter are set up in private chambers inside the school for protection. jane is able to describe the place she was in, which leads faragonda to assume it was somewhere in the under realm. when some strength can be mustered, terry and jane join hands, opening a portal directly whence jane came from, as powerful allies of faragonda storm the haunting premises, arresting brenner and his people, sending them straight to the omega dimension without a trial. brenner had after all succeeded in taking down three planets from the inside, knowing their weaknesses, where to strike first, the best way to occupy. all of the magic stolen from these planets is returned rightfully, as rebuilding and restoration can finally take place.jane spends the following months healing and trying to understand this new way of life. she trusts terry, but is ultimately unsure what to make of it all. there are some who are untrustworthy of her, disbelieving of her victim status, given the range of information and secret meetings she’s overheard over the years; some assume she’s still a spy. faragonda shuts these accusations down as quickly as possible, assuring jane her safety and security within the school. that harm wasn’t ever to come to her again. she slowly begins opening up to faragonda and terry, telling them what she endured, about the void, how she was stuck inside there for days on end. she begins leaving their chambers, too, walking throughout the hallways of alfea, finding a specific admiration for the library. although initially unable to read, barbatea soon comes to her aid, helping her begin slowly, providing her with necessary reading materials which can improve her education. she merely likes the quiet and comfort of the library, happy to flick through books, even if she has little understanding of them. terry begins reading to her every night, as jane’s skills slowly begin to improve. many of the students are aware of her upbringing, who she is, and although there are some sneered comments in the hallway, or uncertain looks thrown her way, jane does find a few friends in some of the older students of the school. she befriends a senior girl, max mayfield and sometimes eats lunch with her and the group in the cafeteria, slowly but surely enhancing her social skills. all of the teachers are very friendly towards her, as jane’s place becomes integrated and promised.by the time she’s fifteen, she has gained some sort of control over her magic. it can still be sporadic and cause great stress, but she practices opening and closing portals from one side of the school to the other. although unwilling to enter the void again, she discovers she is able to disintegrate inanimate objects, as well as move things with her mind. for the first time in her life she feels a tiny connection to her ‘winx’. given she is due to begin at alfea the following year, she is allowed to sit in on classes and listen, to understand what will happen when she turns sixteen, and the way the classroom works. although no work is required of her, she studies the subjects best she can in preparation for the following year. with special consideration, she doesn’t begin her first tested year until she turns seventeen, having not yet felt ready to begin.at seventeen, she joins a dorm room with other girls, as terry moves out of the school to grant jane some kind of independence in her properly beginning school life. jane finds an extreme passion in magic invocation and history of magic, as they both make her feel connected to herself and the world she is still vastly unfamiliar with. there’s a sense of security and normality as she comes into herself. although knowledge of her ability to enter the void does leave her vulnerable to malevolence, and those who might want to use her for this rare ability, jane soon learns not to dwell on this possibility. she tries to surround herself with the goodness that life can truly offer, all while taking things just one day at a time. at her own pace and comfort.

eleven never realised the world changed so drastically; for all she knew, the dead always roamed. never seeing outside bland hospital walls, knowing only repetition and tests, the child never heard the desperation over the radios, on the television screens, marking a worldwide catastrophe. she does, however, sense the shift in priority, the quiet escalation of those around her. she stops going into the bath, and is granted a new set of tests that shake her to her very core.one day, her papa and three other doctors sit her down in a room she's been in many times, and showcase a rotting man upon the opposite side. his face is feral, there are holes in his flesh, and his teeth snap so loudly that eleven can hear it when she backs out of her chair, and corners herself into the far wall. brenner coaxes her out of the corner, softly explaining what the creature was, how evil it is, how only she can kill it, and help everyone. falsities to garner some guilt, to not disappoint her papa and be sent to the cupboard she despises. to begin with, eleven is told purely to kill it, just as she was trained with the cat a few months ago; squeeze it from the inside out. eleven succeeds, leaving her weak and frail, and a mess of brains and gore splattered around the room.weeks pass, and while eleven is called upon less and less for tests, those that she does comply with are horrifying. the lab itself becomes a market for trying to discover the reason for the outbreak, how the dead rose, how to truly stop it. as more and more dead are brought inside the lab's walls, (some still walking, others shot beforehand), tests are run on the creatures to find these answers. brenner searches desperately for a cure, for if he were to find one and offer it to the world, there'd be nothing he wouldn't be able to get. he would have control of all reigns. at least his warped mindset tells him this much.eventually, eleven is taken outside the lab walls for the first time, in order to see the world around her. the dead snarl and roam outside sturdy gates, soldiers line the walls like dominoes, as papa holds her hand and shows her the light. the dead inch closer and closer, some attempting to chew on the fencing, others scraping pointed and rotting nails along, as if trying to get inside. brenner releases eleven's hand, and tells her to kill as many of them as she can. initially fearful, she knows deep down she cannot disobey papa. she raises both hands as the soldiers part away, focuses on all the dead she can see, and does her best. her blood pumped, she could taste the nosebleed in her mouth, her flesh seethed and burned. she remembers seeing at least ten infected drop, before she too, fell to the ground.after eleven was forced to kill the infected, the sheer brutality of her powers being released not only killed the intended, but also shut off some of the power supplies, thus weakening the fence just enough that it was trampled, and the dead were set free inside. brenner picked eleven up as quickly as possible, as gunfire filled the atmosphere, and soldiers were lost to gnashing teeth and bloodlust. seven hours passed, while brenner secured eleven in the closest room he could find, draped her in his coat, before departing to gather the information he'd secured so far on the infected, with a plan to return right away. he never did, and eleven never sees him again.when eleven wakes, there's an eerie silence present, coated in darkness. the emergency generator was set on, as the power was killed. eleven discovers that time has passed since being outside, how much time she's unsure. she called out to papa, but her voice is still small, and her body still aches from the last thing she remembers. she's unsure of the room she woke up in, on the floor, with her papa's coat draped around the hospital gown. blood not yet wiped away from her nose, crusty and slightly brown. when she regains some balance, and gathers herself on shaky limbs, eleven opens the door to snarls echoing off the walls, crimson pools decorating the floor.she retreats back into that room when she hears noises inching closer, wraps herself up in the too-large coat, and waits it out, gathering back her strength. she spends close to a day inside, before mustering as much confidence as she can to seek out papa in the lab. she comes by roaming dead, kills them as she was taught, leaving their bodies crumpled on the ground. there are many doctors on the ground too, throats ripped out, insides on the out; eleven runs past these sights in the attempt to find some salvation. each kill leaves her more fragile than the last, dirty and weak, running on sheer adrenaline. eleven spends close to a month inside the walls, as the noises begin to quieten and slow; many of the infected are destroyed, and if anyone is alive, she has yet to come by them.on the fifth month of the outbreak, eleven decides she will leave the lab. new dead are coming through the crashed gates, and eleven does not think she can stop all of them. it smells constantly, the groans are getting inside her head-- she needs to be out and away. she gathers as many supplies as she can. she'd long since found a small cafeteria where cans of food remained in high cupboards. after slicing her palm in an attempt to open them, she instead uses her powers to remove the lid, and devour the food. she stays in that cafeteria on most days, uses it as a base. she does wander the halls quietly every so often, and retrieves items off both the infected and members of the lab. a backpack is taken off a little girl infected, and eleven apologises profoundly for taking it. she also takes two small handguns from soldiers, and collects the spare bullets from inside their pockets and protective vests. eleven stores these items, as well as a first aid box found in the cafeteria, into the backpack and makes her way out. knives and forks from the kitchen are also stashed into the bag. still wrapped in papa's coat and her old, now filthy hospital gown, she attempts to leave.eleven eventually makes it outside, suns rays touching her matted, but slowly curling hair, as the world opens up to her. she crunches her way through the forest, slowly but surely, each sound beneath her bare feet setting a jolt of worry into her system. she manages to make it to an isolated house before coming by any dead. it's a little house, on a large patch of land, with a shed down the back. eleven runs into the home, everything still perfectly in place, like it was quickly left without any warning. eleven rummages about the house, looks inside the rooms; it's like nothing she'd ever seen. dirty and messy, but clearly a home. one room she stays in the longest, as the desk and walls are filled to the brim with wonderful, colourful drawings. she especially likes the one with a boy in a purple hat, looking over a big ball. there's a note on it, but she's unable to read what is says. (will the wise) there's a pair of jeans on the bed, and without thinking, she slips into them, tucking the gown into their belt. the pants are loose, but they keep her legs warm. she also slips on a pair of sneakers, tying the laces so tight in a knotted ball so they don't slip. before she can get too comfortable, or even get a warmer jacket, she hears those same groans coming the bathroom, and she departs. she needed to save her strength.eight days pass, and eleven finds small places to hide, before arriving into the heart of the town. she's killed countless infected at this point, face ravaged in crimson from the nosebleeds. her powers are becoming more attuned now, and it does not take her so long to regain her strength. the town is a wasteland by the time she gets there, large buildings and homes and shopping centres utterly deserted. glass coats the floor and bodies pile up on the sidewalks and roads; it is a strange world she stepped into. before not too long, she hears a great yell of terror, a shrill shriek from a near distance. pleas for help, for lives to be spared. eleven follows the sounds, feet racing, heart hammering, before she sees it. two boys, a taller and short, caught in the middle of a hoard of infected. the taller carries a strange weapon, protecting the younger fiercely. by now, eleven associates the infected to being killed. if she sees one, she must stop it, just as she was trained to do. as the taller manages to take down a few, eleven steps in, raises both hands, and places enormous amounts of pressure into her bloodstream. she focuses on the dead, on their insides, and squeezes as hard as she possibly can-- they all go down, heads exploding. eleven nearly goes down too, but manages to uphold herself.

the taller one approaches her, soft and slow, and says his name is jonathan. his companion is his brother, will. eleven does nothing but back away, nimble steps as she pulls her backpack off her shoulders, and offers it out to him. he mirrors her actions; places his weapon on the ground at her feet, holds out his hands in a way to show he means no threat. eleven surveys the weapon, before putting her backpack on the ground beside it. she retrieves all the items inside (apart from the one can of carrots she has left), and lays them on the floor. she says he can have the guns, the cutlery, the first aid box, if she can have some food. jonathan claims he has food back at their car, that she could join them. she agrees, packs away her items, and returns the bat to jonathan. they walk in silence, with hard, intense glares from eleven shot between both boys, studying them. when they make it to the car, jonathan offers to clean her bloody nose, thanks her for saving them, and offers her to stay. she decides to stay after he grants her a fresh t-shirt, and says she can protect them.jonathan gives her the nickname 'elle', and she only goes by that name from then on.elle remains with them for over a year. she opens up, she allows them to help her, and she in turn aids them the best she can. hawkins becomes a relatively protected area, as elle is able to wipe out many dead at a time. they all have strategies in place, and do their best to make it a place to properly live. it works for a while. hawkins being somewhat rid of the dead begins to attract outsiders. although the trio still continue on in their section of town, without much interference from strangers, there still comes a risk. one night, jonathan is woken up by the sound of gunfire, to which elle and will quickly join him. outside a hoard attacks, two strangers caught in the middle. without hesitation, elle runs out to their aid (despite jonathan's protests about other's seeing her abilities), and kills them all in one swoop. at this point she has gained great control over her abilities, that even her nosebleeds aren't too heavy. the men are grateful, offering their supplies in exchange for their lives. elle declines, merely saying she's happy they're alright.six nights later, elle startles awake when a hand clasps over her mouth. she wakes with a shock to see the same men from the herd, with one additional man. one points a gun to jonathan's sleeping form, the other to will's, telling her not to make a noise or they'd shoot both boys on the spot. elle raises an arm quickly to fight them off, but it's caught in a vice like grip, and she realises then that if she wanted the boy's to live, she couldn't save herself. jonathan does stir awake, and when he quickly realises what's going on, reaches for his gun. elle was knocked unconscious to the sound of gunfire.when she wakes, she's disorientated and fuzzy, only hearing small snippets of the conversation between the three men. she's in the backseat of a car, and manages to catch words about power and control. there's a few names stashed around in the conversation, but her head aches so horribly, she can't catch onto anything real. she drifts off to sleep again. the third time she wakes, the car still rumbles beneath her, but her energy is restored. a man sits beside her, to her right, keeping a close eye. eleven peers at him through a barely open slit of her eyes, and waits until she can feel her strength properly returning. when it does, she soundlessly, but quickly tilts her head, the force of her powers resulting in the necks of all three men being cracked, and the car hurls to an uncoordinated stop. eleven regains herself, and works quickly to get out of the car. she takes all the weapons the men had on them, and stuffs them into a duffel bag she found in the boot of the car.for the first time since escaping the lab, eleven attempts to contact the void. she returns to the car, sits on the floor of the back, for entering the void leaves her completely vulnerable on the outside. her attempts fail, however, and she finds that walking into that place is no longer an easy feat. she now had no way to find how far she was from her family, to find their location. she can't even see if they are alive. but she had to believe they were. before she allows her emotions to get the better of her, she quickly departs the car, and begins a walk backwards on the open road. perhaps if she just followed it, she could find hawkins again.jonathan taught her how to survive in case of situations like this. he knew she had her powers, but she would need to rely on herself, too. from him, she learnt how to create a fire, how to skin and cook animals, how to handle herself with a gun and knife. eleven never stopped walking until pure exhaustion wreaked her bones. she walked in the dead of night, not wanting to waste a second to return to her family.one day, her guard was lowered on the account of this exhaustion. she never heard the single dead coming from behind. she never heard the snapping teeth or haunting breath. when she finally did whirl around to face it, it was too late, as it pushed her to the ground and tore a chunk out of her left leg. she screamed into oblivion, before she hurled it towards a tree and heard its neck split. she lay on the road, writhing, pain festering her entire body. she knew that where the bite was positioned, if she could cut off her leg then she might be saved. but she didn't have a weapon strong enough to do it, nor would she be able to do it on her own. she certainly would never find jonathan and will again on one leg. elle gave into the inevitable. she was going to die, all alone and scared-- just how she was brought into the world.seven hours, and she feels the infection setting in. when she can no longer walk on her now tightly wrapped up leg, (jonathan again, showed her how to apply first aid for specific wounds), she merely collapses beneath a tree and waits for the end. she drifts off into nothingness, and pictures her brother's in her minds eye as she goes.only-- she doesn't. sooner than later, she wakes up, no longer in pain, but with a great sense of loss tugging at her insides. she risks a glance to her leg, tearing the blood coated cloth away-- the wound is beginning to heal. the pus is gone, and it appears a little less red than it had been. there's still a tingling in her leg, but not enough to pain her. she stands to her feet, shocked that she can walk on a leg which hours ago she was sure would be her death. she continues on, left in a state of shock about what happened to her, wishing she had jonathan and will to speak to, to confide in. however, she quickly discovers, as a lone infected approaches her, that her powers are no longer there. in extreme haste, she's forced to pull out a gun from the duffel bag, and after three missed shots, manages to shoot it in the head. the infection that set into her body killed any trace of her powers; although ultimately saving her life, left her more vulnerable than ever. elle begins to rely on close combat; sneaking up on the dead from behind and stabbing them in the neck. she can use a gun if necessary, but finds it can take a long time to get the balance right.elle continues walking, trying to find hawkins once more, desperate to find her family. she has no map nor guide, merely a small inch of faith that she will see them again.

• BACK.

ONE SUMMER CAN CHANGE EVERYTHING! GRAPPLING WITH THE LOSSES BENEATH A SKY OF FIREWORKS, JANE IVES IS LEFT ONCE AGAIN, ON HER OWN. OF COURSE HER FRIENDS, HER TRUE FAMILY SURROUND, BUT THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. LEFT ALONE TO FEEL NO MORE THAN A BURDEN TO WHOEVER WAS TO LOOK AFTER HER NEXT. SHE WAS THERE THE LONGEST, OUT IN THE RAIN, FIRE TRUCKS SURROUNDING, SMOKE FILLING THE LUNGS. SHE WAITS, HOPING HOPPER MIGHT SHOW HIS FACE. MAYBE HE WAS JUST LATE, MAYBE HE FELL BEHIND. SHE FEELS AN ARM AROUND HER, AN OFFERED BLANKET: STEVE HARRINGTON. WITH NO PARENTS TO PICK HIM UP, TO CARE, HE WAITS WITH HER. SHE DECIDES TO LEAVE AFTER TWO HOURS OF SQUEEZING THE BOY'S FINGERS, FINALLY ADMITTING THAT HOPPER WASN'T RETURNING. SHE GOES HOME WITH STEVE, WHERE THEY SPEND THE NIGHT TOGETHER. THEY PUT CRAPPY MOVIES ON TV; JANE HAS A SHOWER, PUTS ONE OF STEVE'S SWEATERS ON, JOINS CLOSE ON THE COUCH. SHE CALLS HER AUNT BECKY TO TELL HER, IN SIMPLE TERMS, WHAT HAS HAPPENED. THAT HOPPER IS GONE. SHE CRIES TO STEVE, HE CRIES, THEY FALL ASLEEP HAND - IN - HAND AFTER ADRENALINE WEARS OUT AND LULLS THEM AWAY.WHEN MORNINGS RISE SPRUNG THROUGH THE WINDOW, JANE DEPARTED, EXPLAINING THAT SHE NEEDED TO DO A FEW THINGS ON HER OWN, THAT SHE’D BE ALRIGHT. STEVE WORRIED FOR HER, AS NOW WITHOUT HER POWERS, SHE WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO PROTECT HERSELF SHOULD SOMETHING OCCUR. JANE IN RESPONSE, TOLD HIM EXACTLY WHERE SHE WAS GOING, AND IF SHE WASN’T BACK BY 5 O’CLOCK, HE COULD COME AFTER HER.JANE SET OFF, ALMOST REQUESTING STEVE DRIVE HER TO SPEED ALONG HER JOURNEY. ULTIMATELY DECIDED AGAINST, KNOWING HE HAD ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH AS IT WAS. JANE’S DESTINATION WAS PERHAPS AN OBVIOUS ONE, FEET TAKING HER SLOWLY BUT SURELY TOWARDS HER FIRST REAL HOME, FIRST SENSE OF SECURITY: THE CABIN.FRANKLY SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY TO STAY THERE ON HER OWN IF NOT FOR THE GAPING HOLE IN THE ROOF RENDERING THE PLACE UNLIVEABLE. JANE SPENT THE 5TH OF JULY TIDYING UP THE CABIN, FIXING THE SHELVES, PUTTING THE BOARD GAMES BACK IN ORDER, SWEEPING UP ALL THE BROKEN PIECES OF WALL AND ROOF THAT SHE WAS ABLE. BY 3 O’CLOCK, STEVE TURNED UP, TELLING HER TO STOP. INITIALLY SHE WAS ANNOYED BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO BE ALONE; JANE ASKED HIM TO LET HER FINISH HER WORK HERE, PROCLAIMED THAT HER ROOM WAS THANKFULLY UNTOUCHED, THAT SHE COULD REMAIN. “I DON’T NEED TO MOVE. I CAN STAY HERE.” VOICE HITCHED AS SHE BEGGED TO STAY IN THE CABIN, GUARDED WALLS BREAKING DOWN ALL AT ONCE, WHERE STEVE CAUGHT THEM BEST HE COULD BY ENVELOPING THE GIRL INTO A TIGHT EMBRACE. STEVE URGED HER TO COME HOME, THAT SHE WAS TIRED AND FILTHY; THEY’D ALL GROUP TOGETHER AND FIX IT UP LATER. JANE DIDN’T NEED TO DO IT ALONE. THE GIRL RELUCTANTLY AGREED, AS HE ENCOURAGED HER TO TAKE ANYTHING SHE WANTED OF HERS OR HOPPER’S, THAT THERE WAS SPACE IN HIS HOUSE FOR HER, NO MATTER WHAT.JANE SPENT FOUR NIGHTS WITH STEVE, BEFORE WAKING UP ONE MORNING TO A PHONE CALL. BECKY. AFTER GETTING IN CONTACT WITH OWENS, SHE WASTED NO TIME IN MOVING HERSELF AND HER SISTER OUT OF THEIR HOME, AND RIGHT INTO HAWKINS TO CARE FOR JANE. OWENS SUPPORTED THE MOVE, STILL A STRONG FIGURE IN JANE'S LIFE TO HELP HER LIVE NORMALLY AND AWAY FROM HER PAST. HE SET THE IVES WOMEN UP IN A HOUSE IN LOCH NORA, THE RICH SIDE OF HAWKINS, KEEPING THEM AS FAR AWAY FROM THE LAB AS POSSIBLE. JANE SPENT THREE MORE NIGHTS WITH STEVE, LETTING THEM GET THE HOUSE ORGANISED AND SETTLED, BEFORE MOVING IN WITH HER AUNT AND MOTHER. JANE BEGAN TO OPEN UP TO BECKY MORE THAN SHE EVER HAD; TELLING HER ABOUT HAWKINS, THE DARK SIDE OF IT ALL, AND EVERYTHING SHE'D BEEN THROUGH. OWENS EMPLOYED TWO OF HIS FEMALE WORKERS TO ASSIST BECKY IN HER CARE FOR TERRY. SHE IS EXTREMELY HESITANT AT FIRST GIVEN NO ONE HAS EVER CARED FOR HER SISTER BUT HER; SHE SOON GETS ONBOARD WITH THE IDEA, AS IT ALLOWS BECKY MORE FREEDOM TO CARE FOR JANE.JANE MADE FREQUENT TRIPS WITH BECKY TO AND FROM THE CABIN, COLLECTING HER CLOTHES, EVERYTHING FROM HER ROOM, AND TRINKETS WHICH HELD VALUE TO HER. HOPPER’S RECORD COLLECTION WAS QUICKLY SNATCHED UP. SHE KEPT TO HERSELF AT FIRST, TRANSFORMING HER NEW ROOM SLOWLY INTO HER OWN, ALTHOUGH HESITANT TO DO MUCH CHANGING, UNSURE HOW LONG THIS WOULD LAST – DESPITE FREQUENT REASSURANCES THAT THIS WAS HER HOME NOW. THE HOUSE WAS HUGE, FAR TOO BIG FOR THREE PEOPLE, BUT SPACE IS WHAT JANE NEEDED, AND IT SUFFICED. BY THE END OF THE MONTH, WITH COMBINED HARD WORK, THE CABIN HAD BEEN COMPLETELY FIXED UP, HOLE COVERED BY WOOD PLANKS UPON THE OUTSIDE OF THE ROOF: IT ALMOST APPEARED LIKE NOTHING CHANGED. ALTHOUGH THIS WAS COMMITTED TO SO JANE WOULD HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO VISIT SHOULD SHE WISH, SHE ONLY DID SO A FEW TIMES. THE FIRST DAY OF SEPTEMBER WAS THE FINAL TIME SHE VISITED.ON AUGUST THE 15TH, BECKY GRANTED JANE WITH AN EMPTY DIARY. SHE TOLD HER IT MIGHT HELP TO JOT WHATEVER SHE WAS FEELING DOWN, TO EXPRESS HERSELF, TALK THROUGH WRITING. BECKY PROCLAIMED THAT SHE WAS ALWAYS HERE TO LISTEN SHOULD SHE WISH TO SPEAK ALOUD, BUT KNEW JANE NEEDED MORE THAN JUST HERSELF. JANE TOOK THE DIARY GRATEFULLY, FULLY INTENDING TO TRY THIS NEW OUTLET. SHE STARTED SMALL, WRITING ABOUT HER FRIENDS, HER FAMILY, GOOD THINGS THAT MADE HER HAPPY. THEN SHE WROTE ABOUT HOPPER, HOW SHE MISSED HIM, HOW SAD SHE WAS, HOW ANGRY. BEFORE NOT TOO LONG, ALL SEEDED EMOTIONS WERE BEING ROARED OUT ON THESE PAGES, THE INJUSTICES OF IT ALL. SOON HER HANDS WERE WRITING FASTER THAN HER MIND COULD THINK, AND BY SEPTEMBER, THE BOOK IS A QUARTER WAY FULL. IT’S WORKING. IT REALLY IS.WHEN SEPTEMBER ROLLED AROUND AND THE NEW SCHOOL YEAR WAS PREPARING, BECKY QUESTIONED JANE ON WHETHER OR NOT SHE WOULD LIKE TO ATTEND. THERE WAS NO PRESSURE, AND SHE COULD BRING SOMEONE IN TO HOME - SCHOOL HER, AND HELP HERSELF AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. AFTER MUCH CONSIDERATION, JANE DECIDED SHE WOULD LIKE TO BE ENROLLED TO SCHOOL. IT WAS THE NORMAL THING TO DO, RIGHT?HER FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL WAS NOT WHAT SHE EXPECTED – BUT THEN, SHE HARDLY KNEW WHAT IT WOULD ENTAIL. SHE’S CONFUSED BY THE SCHEDULING, THE AMOUNT OF PEOPLE IN THE HALLWAYS IS DAUNTING, AND THE FIRST TIME SHE HEARD THE BELL RING SHE WAS TRANSFERRED IMMEDIATELY BACK TO THE SOUNDS OF CONSTANT ALARMS IN THE LAB. MOST OF HER CLASSES ARE SHARED WITH AT LEAST ONE OF HER FRIENDS, WHICH IS AN IMMEDIATE EASE, THOUGH SHE IS CONFRONTED WITH ISOLATION IN SOME, INSTIGATING TROUBLES TO COME TO LIGHT.AFTER HER FIRST WEEK, HER MOOD INCREASINGLY DROPs; BECKY ONCE AGAIN TALKS TO JANE, BRINGING UP THE IDEA OF A TUTOR. EMBARRASSED BECAUSE HER FRIENDS DON’T NEED EXTRA HELP, SHE DECLINES ASSISTANCE. THREE MORE WEEKS AT SCHOOL PASS, AND STRUGGLES INCREASE, WHILE BULLYING APPEARS FROM THE SIDELINES, JANE ADMITS SHE MIGHT NEED THAT HELP AFTER ALL. BULLYING OFTEN GETS SHUT DOWN VERY QUICKLY, FOR SHE’S MORE OFTEN THAN NOT SURROUNDED BY AT LEAST ONE OF HER FRIENDS. THEY DO NOT SHY AWAY FROM STICKING UP FOR HER, AS THIS NEW STRAIN OF POWERLESSNESS COMES INTO PLAY.ONE TEACHER IN PARTICULAR, HER ENGLISH TEACHER, MRS. ALCINA JOHNSON, GOES OUT OF HER WAY TO TAKE JANE UNDER HER WING. JANE IS ABSENT OF FRIENDS IN THIS CLASS, AND THE TEACHER IS QUICKLY moved by THE CHILD, GOING OUT OF HER WAY TO ASSURE SAFETY AND SECURITY IN HER CLASSROOM. AFTER SAID THREE WEEKS, ALCINA ASKS HER TO STAY BACK AFTER CLASS, WHERE SHE OFFERS EXTRA HELP TOWARDS HER. SHE CAN SEE HOW BRIGHT JANE IS, HER DETERMINATION TO DO WELL, BUT HER WORK IS WAY BELOW GRADE LEVEL, AND THERE HAVE BEEN NO SIGNS OF IMPROVEMENTS DESPITE A MONTH PASSING. JANE THINKS BACK TO BECKY'S OFFER OF A TUTOR, AND GIVEN SHE GENUINELY LIKES THE TEACHER, AGREES TO THE EXTRA HELP. SHE DOES NOT LET STUBBORNNESS OR PRIDE GET IN THE WAY. BEGINNING WITH EVERY DAY AFTER SCHOOL, JANE STAYS BACK AN HOUR AND A HALF, OFTEN IN THE LIBRARY, SOMETIMES IN THE ENGLISH CLASSROOM, JOHNSON ASSISTS JANE IN MORE SUBJECTS THAN JUST HER OWN. AFTER TIME, THE DAYS LESSEN, AND BY MID - DECEMBER, THEY’RE DOWN TO TWO DAYS A WEEK, but SPEND TWO HOURS TOGETHER RATHER THAN AN HOUR AND A HALF. JANE’S IMPROVING ON ALL FRONTS.THE ANGELA SITUATION, I BELIEVE, IS IMPORTANT TO DEMONSTRATE JANE’S ANGER AND TRUE STRUGGLES BEING REVEALED. SO, KEEPING ALL THE CANON EVENTS REGARDING HER DIORAMA, THE GROUP TARGETING HER, BASICALLY MAKING LIFE HELLISH IN A PLACE THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE SAFE. SHE DOES HAVE HER FRIENDS SURROUNDING, MEANING SHE HAS MORE SUPPORT AND OPPORTUNITIES TO SHUT DOWN THE BULLYING, IT’S STILL PROMINENT ENOUGH TO TAKE HER TO THAT DARK PLACE SHE WAS EXPERIENCING AT THE ROLLER RINK. AFTER HER OUTBURST IN THE SCHOOL GROUNDS WHEN HER DIORAMA IS CRUSHED, MISS JOHNSON USHERS ANGELA AWAY. LEAVING THE BULLY TO CONSIDER JANE A ‘SNITCH’ FOR GETTING HER INTO TROUBLE.JANE, MIKE AND DUSTIN GO TO THE ROLLER RINK TOGETHER. WHEN THEY NOTICE ANGELA AND HER GROUP ARRIVING, THEY OFFER TO LEAVE; JANE DECLINES, SAYING SHE’D BE OKAY, THAT SHE WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME. ANGELA APPROACHES THE GROUP, SINCERE AND BELIEVABLE. SHE APOLOGISES TO JANE IN FRONT OF THE BOYS, AND WHILE THEY TELL HER TO GET LOST, JANE WANTS TO LISTEN— SHE SEEMS SO GENUINE AND NICE. ALL SHE’S WANTED WAS TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS, FIT IN WITH SOMEONE SO POPULAR. SHE TELLS HER FRIENDS NOT TO WORRY ABOUT IT, THAT IT WAS GOOD. SHE ACCEPTS ANGELA’S APOLOGY EAGERLY, EVEN MORE SO WHEN ANGELA OFFERS HER A SMOOTHIE AS A PEACE OFFERING, AND TAKES HER HANDS TO GLIDE WITH HER OUT ON THE RINK. APOLOGY WAS AN OBVIOUS GUISE, AS SHE SETS JANE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE RINK, AND CHAOS ENSUES IN THE SAME PREMISE WE SEE IN THE SHOW. DUSTIN AND MIKE ATTEMPT TO GET THROUGH THE CROWDS, BUT ARE UNABLE. BY THE TIME THEY GET THERE, JANE’S ROLLED AWAY TO BE ON HER OWN. ANGER explodes AND SHE HITS ANGELA WITH THE ROLLER SKATE. SHE WAS SO GULLIBLE, SO DESPERATE FOR SOMEONE LIKE ANGELA TO LIKE HER. SHE NOW KNOWS THAT'LL NEVER BE POSSIBLE. SHE WAS A FOOL FOR THINKING SHE COULD EVER BE NORMAL. STEVE PICKS THEM UP, DROPS DUSTIN AND MIKE HOME, AND TAKES JANE HOME.THE FOLLOWING DAY WHEN SHERIFF POWELL COMES KNOCKING ON THE DOOR, JANE IS TAKEN TO THE POLICE STATION. BECKY IS THERE WITH HER. they QUESTION JANE HARSHLY, AS THE COPS IN S4 DID. WHEN SHE RESPONDS THAT SHE ‘DOESN’T KNOW IF SHE WANTED TO KILL HER’, THE FIRST MENTION OF JUVENILE DETENTION COMES OUT. BECKY IMMEDIATELY STANDS UP, CLAIMING THE ABSURDITY OF IT ALL, THAT THESE PEOPLE HAD BEEN TORMENTING JANE FOR MONTHS, (STEVE HAVING TOLD BECKY THE TRUTH, DESPITE JANE BEGGING HIM NOT TO) THAT ALL JANE'S FRIENDS HAVE DEALT WITH BULLIES, YET THE BULLIES ARE NEVER HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR THEIR ACTIONS. WHEN THEY ATTEMPT TO LEAD JANE TO GET MUGSHOTS, BECKY PUTS A STOP TO IT, SAYING THAT IF SHE WAS BEING ARRESTED, SHE WAS ENTITLED TO ONE PHONE CALL. THE OFFICERS AGREE, AND BECKY CONTACTS OWENS TO GET THERE IMMEDIATELY AND HELP THEM OUT. BECKY CLAIMS SHE’S CALLED HER LAWYER, AND JANE WOULDN’T BE GOING ANYWHERE UNTIL HE ARRIVED.OWENS AND THREE MEN ARRIVE WITHIN FIVE HOURS, WHERE JANE AND BECKY ARE KEPT AT THE STATION. jane remains completely silent, and does not respond to becky's attempts to comfort her. THEY SPEAK TO THE SHERIFF AND HIS DEPUTY IN PRIVATE, THREATENING THEM WITH COURT BATTLES AND LEGAL PROCEEDINGS GOING MUCH FARTHER THAN WAS NECESSARY IN AN OTHERWISE QUIET TOWN. JANE’S NAME IS PLACED ON RECORD, BUT SHE’S LET OFF ON A FIRST AND FINAL WARNING. IT COULD HAVE BEEN WORSE THAN A GRADE 2 CONCUSSION, AFTER ALL. BECKY AND OWENS HAVE A LONG CONVERSATION ABOUT JANE AFTER RETURNING HOME. OWENS SPEAKS TO HER IN PRIVATE TOO, TELLING HER THAT THIS WOULD GO AWAY. SHE DOESN'T NEED TO WORRY. HE TELLS HER HE IS SENDING A THERAPIST HER WAY, SOMEONE THAT CAN HELP CONTROL HER EMOTIONS AND HANDLE HERSELF THE BEST WAYS THAT SUIT. BECKY SUGGESTED THIS MULTIPLE TIMES, TO SEE MISS KELLY IN THE SCHOOL, TO WHICH JANE DECLINED OUT OF EMBARRASSMENT, BUT NOW IT WAS A NECESSITY. SHE COULDN'T KEEP THESE THINGS HIDDEN AWAY ANY LONGER. IT WOULD DESTROY HER. OWENS ALSO SPEAKS TO MISS JOHNSON, TELLING HER A BELIEVABLE AND REALISTIC TALE OF JANE’S ABUSIVE UPBRINGING AND HER ISOLATED ENVIRONMENT. JOHNSON HAD ALREADY TAKEN AN INTEREST IN JANE, AND VOWED TO CONTINUE AIDING HER AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE.BECKY SUPPORTS JANE IN EVERY WAY SHE CAN. JANE BEGINS TO CLOSE OFF FROM HER FOR THE FIRST TIME, BUT BECKY CONTINUES PUSHING TO KEEP HER NIECE CLOSE, AND TELLS HER WHAT HAPPENED WAS NOT HER FAULT. THAT SEEING SOMEONE PROFESSIONAL MIGHT BE A GOOD IDEA. THERE WAS ONLY SO MUCH HER AUNT COULD DO TO HELP HER HEAL AND PROCESS. TO BECKY, JANE ISN’T A GIRL WHO’S SAVED THE WORLD A FEW TIMES. SHE’S THE NIECE SHE DIDN’T BELIEVE IN, AND WOULD SPEND THE REST OF HER LIFE MAKING IT UP TO HER AND TERRY.

• BACK.

jane’s life at school for the first few weeks after the roller rink incident is met with an array of reactions. extensive whispers behind her back, direct conversations in her face, called a freak in the hallways. however, others applaud her for taking a stand against angela, for not being afraid to fight back against bullies. these aren’t healthy reactions of course, and jane doesn’t feel any glee whatsoever in a sudden rise of praise and intrigue. she sticks to her friends even closer, doesn’t try and make new ones as she’d been so desperately seeking. school is just another thing she falls behind in, is different in.she doesn’t like the idea of seeing cathleen (owens' provided therapist) at first, and spends almost all her first session curled up on her chair, silent. but cathleen doesn’t expect much more, and she easily sits in the silence. twenty minutes before leaving, she looks around jane’s room, asking her to talk about the line of photographs she has on her dresser drawers. pictures with her friends, terry's senior yearbook photograph. terry and andrew's wedding pictures. jane perks up, softly telling her about them, and the days they were taken. although they don’t speak long, it’s comfortable and somewhat easy. cathleen leaves, and a routine begins: each thursday afternoon at 4pm she arrives at the ives’ house for one hour to talk to jane. jane is nervous at first, but does begin to open up. initially she talks about her day - to - day life, her schoolwork, friends, the way she sometimes sits in on the hellfire club campaigns. before long, deeper emotions are built and she’s delving into the trauma that has cascaded her entire existence. her time in the lab quickly became a major topic of conversation, papa, kali, the upside down… all of it flows out more and more each week, as jane began to process what happened to her, what she has done, in a manner she’d never been allowed to before. she grows angry, no longer tries to fight back tears, allows complete freedom on an extremely cathartic level.over the following weeks she gains a sort of routine. monday’s and wednesday’s she stays back at school for two hours with mrs. johnson, where steve usually picks her up. on occasion she stays back the few extra hours to watch the hellfire club’s recent campaign. she has little interest in learning the rules, merely enjoys being in the presence and watching the boys go wild. then on thursday cathleen visits at four o’clock sharp. it’s a sense of security. she and dustin go to the arcade together every few weeks on a saturday, sometimes with the party, sometimes on their own. she and lucas grow increasingly close over these months, and she never misses a basketball game, or practise. however as her sessions continue and given jane does not stop expressing herself through writing in her journal, she begins to experience flashbacks which at first, she isn’t sure if they are even hers. quick blinks of hawkins lab, a friendly man who she doesn’t know, other kids… she does not know where it's coming from, and it worries her.she brings this up with cathleen, where she in response mentions that anytime jane speaks of the lab, it’s only from a certain age onwards. she questions what life was like as a little girl, and jane realises she can’t remember anything. she is thus encouraged to do so.in the following months, she begins to have recurring dreams, they’re always the same, just with different outcomes. she’s in the void, present day, watching lost memories unfold like a projection before her. she’s small in these memories, surrounded by children she’s unfamiliar with, memories of papa she cannot recall despite how hard she tries. soon, these are the only dreams she has. one night, flashes of horrible sights flood all senses, children disfigured, blood everywhere. it wakes her to a start, and the window in her room cracks. she thinks nothing of it, until these dreams continue full-force, and multiple strange things begin happening around her. she continues to be triggered by things in her everyday life, small happenings evoking even a second of memory she had buried deep away. objects begin moving in the corner of her eye but by the time she turns to look its ceased, electricity felt in the air here and there, in her fingers. it’s familiar. jane associates these feelings to her lost abilities, unsure how that could be possible.she begins to stay up late in the night, pulling a single coke can from the trash and storing it under her bed. initial attempts prove fruitless. two weeks after, these feelings became more intense, dreams more real, and as a result, she finally succeeds in crushing the coke can with her mind. taken aback, she can’t believe this is happening. jane keeps this to herself, doesn’t tell cathleen even, and continues attempting to re-train herself. over christmas she takes a break, although the dreams don’t cease, she does her best to enjoy herself over the christmas holidays and the lead into 1986. she’s determined to rekindle her connection to her powers in the new year.by february, she’s gathered some sense of control. her abilities are sporadic and don’t always work when she tries, but she has been successful many times in her practicing. she has yet to get a nosebleed, though, given they’re still reasonably weak in energy. life continues as usual, school and counselling sessions in and out, grades and skills improving. she decides to tell the party about what’s been happening to her, only regarding her powers, not the dreams she’s been having. she tells her friends she doesn’t know why they are coming back, only that she can feel them returning, and has been able to use them. silently her dreams are becoming more and more real, and she remembers the day her mother tried to take her home, after a friendly orderly gave her this shocking information. terry is able to sense her daughter's gifts returning.jane receives her first c- in class for a creative short story she wrote. grades are still very average, but she’s getting through. she attends lucas’s basketball game.jane quickly follows her friends in the attempt to find eddie munson, assumed murderer of chrissy cunningham. talking to eddie, overhearing what he saw, triggers a wave of shock deep in her core, something she can’t explain. she doesn’t say anything given the already present strain of the situation. she’s asked whether she can feel anything, whether any of this is familiar to her, and she denies it. although there is an inkling, she knows there’s nothing she can currently do to help. she remains with steve, max and dustin, as nancy and robin head to the library. becky asks if jane is safe; whether this is the upside down or a real killer on the streets. jane tells her she doesn't know, because she doesn't have her powers she can't sense anything. she feels awful for lying.jane is there when max is cursed in the graveyard, and attempts to pull her down with her powers, to no avail. she then tries to connect to max through the void though fails. thankfully, max saves herself by her own will and might. the whole ordeal makes jane’s stomach churn, and she’s sure it’s not just because of max – it’s something her body seemingly knows that her mind cannot place. that night when they all sleep in the wheeler’s basement, jane endures another dream, the most full on, the clearest one yet. she remembers everything now up to removing the chip from the friendly orderly’s neck. she can also see the children, bloodied and twisted, with her standing there in the middle of it all. gown deep crimson, eyes weeping red. she wakes to a start, quickly departing to the upstairs bathroom. she cries, strangled and hoarse; having remembered the way the other children tormented her, she believed it was an excuse to kill them. she was a monster.she squeezes a bottle of shampoo with her mind purely in the heat of the moment, however, that familiar taste of blood curls upon her upper lip. this is the first time she’s received a nosebleed since her powers were stolen. she returns to her friends after an hour, laying back down as if she’d never moved, though fails to fall asleep again. she dares not speak any of this aloud.when crossing the lake, jane initially suggested following them on the boat, claiming she knew the most about the upside down, that she could help them. nancy encourages her to stay with the others; her powers are still unpredictable, she needs to remain safe. jane disappointedly listens, remaining with max, dustin and lucas.jane admits that something is familiar about all of this to her group when they are taken back to the wheeler’s house. “i feel like i have been here before.” she tells them she can feel herself getting stronger – she took the nosebleed as a sign – more connected to her abilities. tells them simply she has been remembering things from her childhood, and she feels like it is a sort of progress to her getting full control. after escaping the police and heading back to eddie’s trailer, jane assists in pulling out the teens from the upside down –until, as nancy is possessed by vecna, jane too, falls back, eyes rolling into her head, tremors coursing her body. she experiences something akin to a stroke, locked inside her own mind. instead of viewing her lost memories, she is back in that lab, a little girl, eyes on 001. it wasn’t her who committed such atrocities, she knew this now. she remembered everything, as she defeats 001 and banishes him to the upside down. everything comes full circle. she is broken out of this only a few moments after nancy is released. a blood curdling scream escapes, shattering all windows in the trailer.max was the fuse, but seeing nancy in such a state was the straw that broke the camel's back, so to speak. her powers and memories were restored.nancy and jane combine their experiences to put all their pieces together, to understand what they’re up against. jane practices her abilities on a much higher scale, succeeds, and that familiar sensation returns completely.jane writes a letter to her aunt, and leaves it on her bed just in case things don't go the way they hope. she thanks her for coming to hawkins, for looking after her when she thought she had no one else. she writes a rather detailed summary of the dreams she was having, her powers returning. she apologises for lying to her, says she loves her very much.jane goes into the creel house with max. there was conflict at first, where she would be better suited given the return of her abilities, but decides to go with max just in case things went awry. if she got trapped in her own mind, jane was the only one who would be able to follow, whereas if she’d gone to the upside down, her skills might not have been as useful. jane breaks free from vecna’s clasps in her own free - will. she believes in herself, rather than needing to hear such affirmations, and she believes in max, and mike, and her friends, and it’s their memory and their bright futures that gives her the strength to overpower vecna in that moment and free herself.after hawkins is split in four, jane immediately goes to the hospital with max and lucas. while max is in surgery, she calls becky, who is frantic on the other line after coming home to see jane's letter, and the complete horror that hawkins became. jane, voice choked with tears, asks for her to come to the hospital. becky arrives within a few minutes. after some time, jane takes her outside, where they sit in becky's car and jane unloads everything that has been going on the last few months.soon enough, max begins recovery, the byers return to hawkins, and it becomes a question of what happens next. with her restored powers, jane takes the time to look for hopper in the void, but he is gone, and it gives her some closure to begin moving on. owens helps joyce and her boys get back on their feet in hawkins, getting them a house too. when max is fit enough to leave the hospital, with her father unwilling to care for her, and susan dying in the 'earthquake'... max takes up residence with the ives family. the house is easily big enough for another member.

welcome to shadowedvales, an independent, private and mutually exclusive portrayal of jane ives of stranger things. i claim no ownership of this character nor any of her affiliations. this blog will be very sporadic activity, with my muse and energy depicting the time in which i’m active. i ask that you do not follow me if you’re under eighteen, and that you give me a few days to check out your blog should you follow first. my version of jane is incredibly headcanon based, taking primary canon content from seasons one through two. it is important to note that i have rewritten jane's entire verse for season four/1986, and will never, ever write in the "nina project" canon. it was cheap, lazy writing to me, and i did not vibe! my rewrite can be found in my verses section.i am mutually exclusive and if i follow you, it means i genuinely want to interact. i wish to maintain actual connections on this blog, rather than just be a follow count on someone's dash. if i follow first, and you have no interest in writing with me, please hardblock so i don’t accidentally follow you again. if we are mutuals for a month, and there has been no interaction, then i will either reach out to you through ims or send a meme, or simply softblock.this blog will feature triggering themes, such as (but not limited to): child abuse, horror, war themes, and stockholm syndrome. mature themes will always be tagged – cw / example – and please ask if you need anything specifically noted. please tag any mentions of cancer. this blog will not feature any sort of sexual content, clearly, as jane is a minor and she will not be aged up for that reason.i adore crossovers! i have a range of verses for jane to include her in other pieces of media – so feel free to reach out if you are not in the stranger things fandom. memes are the best way to interact and they never expire. there is never any pressure to respond to asks i answer, but i highly encourage it if you're feeling up to it!! i also love plotting and certainly can go a little overboard if i get super excited about an idea. i only ask if that we plot, please do not leave me to do all the work. it is super tiring, and if you give me yes/no responses, i will most likely block you.this blog focuses heavily on jane’s relationship with her mother, and the lack thereof. terry and becky are major players in jane’s timeline, rather than being pushed to the side without any further mention after season two. i take a lot of inspiration from jane not specifically knowing how to function in the world without a mother by her side. she draws her strength from terry, from the idea that someone loved her that much, but it’s also one of her biggest weaknesses. i am also very, very bored of the ‘adult character adopts jane’ troupe, as it’s been done to death, and i want a wider range of dynamics here than just that. if it’s plotted well, then i’ll always be up for giving it a shot. but just because any character is older than jane, it doesn’t automatically mean they need to perceive her as a daughter figure.although i have completely rewritten jane's time in the lab, as well as killed off hopper post season three and made jane's father/daughter relationship blossom instead with sam owens, please note that i am always happy to explore these dynamics in aus! i know people write oc children in the lab, and jim hopper, so please do not let my rewrites stop you from interacting! the only canon story i am fully against exploring is the nina project, but anything else, even if it's not my default, is open!

if at any point after season two episode five, your muse refers to jane as elle/el/eleven, i will hardblock. no warning. this might seem really harsh, but after writing her on tumblr for nearly four years, it's incredibly discouraging to be writing with someone and they use those names. it's written multiple times on my blog, in my pinned, in my carrd, that jane is her name. if you call her eleven, then it's just proof you haven't read any of my rules. this includes if we are discussing headcanons together. i am here to write jane ives and not the season three/four mess of a character that the d*ffers gave us. obviously anything set pre season one, or early two, elle/eleven is fine! and this changes depending on certain crossover verses! on this note also, please do not assume jane is in a relationship with mike (it has happened to me in the past) because she most certainly is not. her dynamic with mike is written in the study section of my carrd. she has never, and will never be in a romantic relationship with him. (girlie is a lesbian!)i am not duplicate friendly. i love, adore and respect all jane blogs, but i am simply not interested in seeing another on my dash. this is nothing personal! i have been writing jane since 2016, and over the years she has become very important to me, and i have become a little private about my portrayal of her. my portrayal is also very individual and taken away from the stranger things fandom as a whole. i know that i have crafted ideas for jane that no other writer would, and back when i wrote her on a different platform, i frequently saw those unique ideas taken. i just don't want to have to worry about that kinda stuff anymore. alondra, this does not include your jane. and if you write her on a multi, feel free to follow!! <3hate or bullying of any kind will not be tolerated. it’s pretty sad that in 2024 we still need to be writing this in our rules – but if you show any horrible behaviour, i’ll hardblock and report. it’s not that difficult to be an empathetic human being with some common sense. i don’t participate in call outs, unless the person is a genuine threat to the rpc. if i interact with someone known to be vastly problematic and has affected many people, please tell me. i don’t know heaps about the drama that occurs on this hellsite, as i try to steer clear, but do be sure to respectfully tell me if i’m writing with a known abuser, and i will remove myself from that situation. i take actual threats very seriously. this does not include individual drama. your personal problems with people are yours, and i don’t want to know about it.do not interact if you write: billy hargrove, james moriarty, gossip girl muses, kylo ren, genderbent muses, and 13 reasons why muses. if you have them on multi's, that's fine, i just won't interact with them. the following list has no exception. if you use these faces even on a multi, do not interact: johnny depp, amber heard, chris pratt, hayley atwell, noah schnapp or any known problematic people in the media.hi! i’m frankie, jumping back into the st fandom on tumblr! i have been writing jane on different platforms on and off since 2016, and i am so hype to finally bring her back properly. i'm very chill and always up for chatting, even if it can take me days to actually respond to messages. i promise the enthusiasm is there, i'm just very busy and get drained quickly! my discord is available on request. looking forward to writing with ya’ll!note: i do not specifically support millie bobby brown, but i do adore her in the role of jane, particularly in the first two seasons. just so there isn't any confusion, i use mbb for jane in s1-2, (and sometimes in 3, depending on muse) but switch to jennifer connelly for season 3-4, then mia sara from 4 onwards!i especially do not support the d*ffer brothers, or stranger things as a whole. jane is simply a very important character to me, who i have been writing since 2016, and i can't imagine giving her up just because of the toxic behind the scenes of the show itself. i do not provide the series any money, as whenever i rewatch the show, i watch it from the downloads i copied a few years back, and i no longer buy any merchandise that could give the creators or netflix any funding